After the A level chinese oral exam today, I felt what I felt back in sec 4. The same disappointment, anger and frustration.

I prayed. And others prayed for me too. So why did it all happen?

At first when I walked into the examination venue feeling so calm, I thought," God must be here with me. He has given me peace and there is nothing I should be afraid of."

But then I walked out on the verge of tears after screwing the whole exam.

Later at the pop cafe, everyone was complaining about how they have screwed up the whole exam too and I listened to all they had to say. It seemed like they were all competing to see who did the worse.

What the toots. Everyone spoke at lengths about how he or she did badly and outlined details about what they said and what the examiner did.

When Becca asked how I did, I told everyone," Oh. Confirm A. "

What a joke.

Sybil even said that I walked out of the room smiling.

What a joke.

Everyone I smsed said that they were sure I " did alright".

What a joke.

Only someone else said that all I have to do now is work harder for the written.

Well at least that was an honest-no-walls-no barrier-speak-the-truth answer.

After a while, I remembered what I told everyone on saturday," You know, even when things don't go your way and it seems like life's a joke, God has a perfect plan and He is carrying it out. Everything, even the funny stuff, the bad stuff, the happy stuff, the sad stuff. It's all part of His wonderful plan."

It's all part of His plan.

Even deaths. Look at Jo-An. Her friend passed on but God used that opportunity to save souls and spread the gospel even further.

God must have a plan too when He took Thaddeus home. God didn't put him in the papers for so many days for nothing. God most definitely has a plan. Even if sometimes we complain about how bad things are and how sucky life is, God can see the big picture, we can't. So I think it's time we shut up and just follow Him.

I choose to have child-like faith.

I'm not "still_a_child" for nothing.

I'm all 17, going on 18. But I'm still a child of God.