holidays are coming.

i scored 72 for maths. i am so happy.
60 plus for geog. mm. nvm. i scored 50 plus in term 1 haha.
i want more results!!

camp is coming. gonna bunk with morz, rach, audrey and jos. beef sacrificed herself and bunked some other people. mm. our clique is split. nvm. choose tents that are nearer la.

taking kayaking and high rope course. i think. cant remember if its kayaking and high ropes or kayaking and orienteering. whatever la. can have taken 1 star canoeing. but whole camp on canoe no fun. must try more things. haha. i am bringing some cds along. so that if the campfire item has got to do with movements, i can be of help. ha. i hope i can la..

i am kinda jealous of partner and jos and the few others in my class who have labtops. they can save work there, save presentations in there and bring the whole thing. so cool. O well. guess i have to wait till i am old enough for mum to recognise my need of a labtop. for now, she doesnt see any need.

i kinda feel sad. dunno why. i feel poor and misarable, looked down upon and small, useless and an outcast, unwanted and uncared for. i feel weak.
i feel sorta angry. buut have no strength to speak up.

i want to be included. people snub me. people never include me into things. they plan without me. they settle a date when i cannot go. i tell them so, but they dont hear me. they put me into something i know nuts about.i cannot raise my voice. i want to close my eyes.

i am tired. i want to walk away. but how can i when they are my 'team'?
they dun care, they leave everything to me. there are so many examples. she, L, is supposed to set an example for everyone else. but she does the opposite. the people have voted wrongly.

when i dance, when i act, when i sing, i forget everything. i like that feeling.

i like that kind of feeling.

dun treat me like this, putting yourself at a sorry level, making me guilty. but i have done nothing. he framed me. he used my name. i hope one day you can read it, and understand.

cheryl, try look on the bright side, no matter how dim the light can be. there must be a light, somewhere, only you havent seen it.

dun close your eyes, no matter how tempting it might be.

be happy. be happy.