What's holding me back?
What's wrong with letting go, opening the gates that wall around the city of my heart?
What's wrong with letting people get close to me, and why is it I always end up pushing people away?
Seems like it all the time. I invite them to come, then when they get too close for comfort, sorry dude, you need to back off.
Why do I always think it's easier to live the way I do, not thinking about this:
It's not about the ease of life, not about smooth living. God didn't call us to a peaceful life on earth anyways.
It's not about staying in my bubble of protection, rejecting any possibility of change in emotion, cos then I'll be missing out.
On the happys and sads, the ups and downs. And that's just normal. It's life! Life's meant to be emotional. We're human.
Just have to remember, even in the ups and downs, as long as I look to Christ, it's all good. So I might not be used to it. I might enjoy the happys, and feel like the sads are harder to take. But if Christ holds my heart, I'm sure He'll protect it and won't drop it. He brings me through everything in life. Lover of my soul.
It's all good. :)
I'm scared, but it's time. I'm letting go.
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