In times like this I question myself and ask if I'm the right one.

Unworthy, I'm more immature than you think. Do I even have the ability to do so? How can I be the one when there are so many better?

Yeah everything is part of a great masterplan.

I just don't see how such a me can do anything useful. How God can use a tiny, idiot, inexperienced me as a tool, to make an impact.

OK I got the answer. My heart has to be willing.

Wow. Look what I just typed. Easier typed than done.

Oh God I pray for strength, for miracles and hearts to be open. I pray for your guidance and wisdom and I ask you help me make the right decisions. I pray for sensitivity and initiative. I pray for love and forgiveness.

I pray for clean hands and a clean mind and a clean heart. I pray that who I am is a good example and what I do is worth mimicking.