Aren't chocolates supposed to be sweet?

Mrs Goh gave me one today during gp lecture, when we got back our compre results. Damn it man I'm failing even english.

I failed geog.
I failed lit.
I failed econs.
I failed math.

The only thing I'm passing is chinese. What the toots. Frickin' chinese which I don't like the most. What an irony.

I kept crying in school. After every paper was returned. And I kept asking myself what I was doing in my life.

I keep telling people I'll probably retain but nobody ever listens to me properly. They'll just shake it off with a," Aiyah, won't lah.."

I keep asking for help but it's always coming too late. Otherwise, it doesn't come. It seems I have a very steady appearance that fools people into thinking I can overcome everything with ease. I'm telling you now, that's not who I am.

There are times when I can brave the fiercest storms.
But there are also times when I can't stand the drizzle.

I don't want to be retained.
But everyday it seems like I'm moving backwards instead of forward.
I have no intention of being in the same standard as my younger brother.

Mummy and daddy said they won't scold me or punish me or be angry if I retain. But I know they'll be utterly disappointed.

Mummy once told me in sec 4 that taking a bit of chocolate everyday would make me happier.

But how come the Ferrero Rocher tasted salty today?