This whole thing is a test of my patience.

But today in church I learnt that we are overcomers. And that we should thank God from problems. Cos it gives us an opportunity to overcome, and show that we are powerful because we have God.

I'm getting really ticked off by little things more easily. Which obviously is bad.

1. Breathe out.
2. Take a walk.
3. Most importantly, think about God and pray.

I also have to remind myself that if you have nothing good to say, don't say. Better be a better light for Christ.

Sometimes I'm too competitive and I forget that God has a master plan. Who cares what other people do or get. Who cares whether I scored better or worse than others. Who cares whether other people have more disposable money. I should not learn to be such a consumerist. No good to want so many things all the time. I wanna store my treasures in heaven and then be happy big time when I finally get there.

For now.

1. Be a good girl. Stop thinking about fun, too much of it is sin.
2. Study hard. Do my best, but NOT think about results.
3. Save money as much as possible. Save half my breakfast and half my lunch and eat it for dinner.
4. Have QT every day. Daily discipline. It's hard, but try as much as possible. Or pray. Really. Just. Communicate.

Future goals (short term/long term):

1. Good example to the younger people. Doesn't matter whether I'm a CGL or worship leader. Even if I'm not, I don't wanna give people wrong ideas of being a Christian.
2. Real, awesome, up most of the time, happy, learning, 2 way relationship with God. I want to be able to hear him all the time. Like really be able to discern His voice. Yay thinking of it makes me happy. Haha.
3. Work hard, earn and save money to buy cutlery, bedsheets, bed, table, chair and bowls and whatever else needed in my future rented house in Australia. If possible, maybe a second hand car too.
4. Make a list of what is needed for my rented house.
5. Go on exchange.

Yay I'm feeling better already.
Sorry for the mess. I just had to pull it all out.
Ok, now time to study.
DEAR GOD, PLEASE BLESS MY TIME OF STUDYING. I'M GONNA START NOW AND I PRAY THAT I'LL BE ABLE TO ABSORB EVERYTHING AND RETAIN IT WELL. BLESS ME WITH GOOD RESULTS SO THAT I CAN USE IT AS A TESTIMONY, AND HONOUR YOU. GRANT ME WISDOM AND CLARITY OF MIND.
I RECOMMIT MY LIFE IN YOUR HAND TODAY.
ALL THESE I PRAY IN YOUR NAME.
AMEN.