i realised today i was really really scared of needles. like those injections kinds. haha.

rachel was da zhenning in class again. then she like pointed the needle at me. only after 2 seconds did i realise i screamed very loudly. ahaha.

syf training was a bit slack. noorlina wasnt there so we just rehearsed a bit, talked a lot and poured over the school magazine. poor mrs tan. everytime she sees her name or face in it, we go " ohhh... nooo...ahahaaa.." then we cover everything and go on to the next page.

a lot of people came to our school today. the guys table tennis team played in the hall, npcc had some visitor from st. gabs and some other school. saw yan. she looks a bit... like the victoria uniform was a bit big on her. haha. but i must say. not bad not bad. ip programme, victoria jc. haha. maybe will get to be in the same school as her?? yea. motivation man...

now i am gonna talk a bit about her..will reveal more in my private blog. so those who can see can see.

she is a stranger.
she bugs me. a little. cannot say a lot. because people bugged me more in the past. not saying here.
she trys to be cool. she seeks attention.
she trys to be modest but end up really sacarstic.
she comes and takes things away. my friends, my sister.( if you know what i mean) ok la. not really. but i think very soon, i will be seeing alot of her and i dun want to.
she boasts about the relationship she has with people.
she night be invading my church soon. and i dun want her to.

maybe this is just plain selfishness i am harbouring.
i shouldnt be. the church is not mine, people are not mine. friends should be shared. and also many others.

i should change my attitude about her. but it will be difficult.

now on to more stuff. during the week. he took a step forward and asked me the question. to be or not to be. i told him not. he became changed. i broke his heart twice. sorry.

then now we returned to normal. he moved a space backward.

i always tend to feel guilty after rejecting people. no i am not boasting or wad. just saying that rejecting people is not fun. if i say yes, it would not be fair to him because i really dun want to start a realtionship with him. say no will break his heart. i dun like to do that but i have no choice. i am still waiting for my prince charming to pick me up.

waiting for the right prince.

come soon ok?..


going out wiht joanne and amaris tomorrow. i dun want to watch constantine!! no matter you pay me or bribe me or watever. i am not going into the theatre. unless.. unless...