For some reason I'm thinking about him a lot now today. When he said " I don't think this would work out" keeps replaying in my mind. I keep seeing myself turn to the left so my tears fall out of the view on the computer.

I keep thinking that I should have said "No, we haven't even tried to talk about it yet, we should give it a chance, we've come so far."

I keep reliving the moment when we were eating at Maccas at the airport and he moved to sit next to me and "Don't worry, I'm working on it. I promise I'll propose soon."