Today was emotionally draining.

I didn't expect myself to freak out in school over tiny air bubbles in my left thumb's nail polish.

Couldn't breathe, couldn't concentrate, couldn't function. And it was only assembly.

Felt super alone too. Couldn't tell anyone, couldn't get any assurance or peace. I wasn't sure what else I could do. In that moment, I just needed anyone to tell me that it was ok, to rest in God. To point me back to perfect love.

Eventually I peeled off the top layer of nail.

Who would want a wreck like me. Who would be able to handle me. I can't even handle me.

Today sucks. I need to just lie down and cry to sleep.