Every day I pray that God will give him love for me again, trust in me one more time, patience to talk to me.

I feel like we've never actually really sat down together to talk about how we should and want to communicate. we've talked briefly in the past when we had conflicts, I remember him saying that I should never give him the cold shoulder and he should open up more and share about his day and his troubles. I remember never ever again ignoring his messages. I wish we could sit down again this time to talk again, so that I know what I can do, I know I can do it, after all, I did stop giving him cold shoulders. I can learn.

Dear God, give me a second chance please. Let me show him how much I've grown to love him even in difficult times, how much I want to stand by him in both good days and lousy days. Let me show him how I can be who you want me to be for him. Help us still find that spark in our hearts for each other, that desire to build and grow together in You, the forgiveness that can only come from You, the boldness to let go of our pride against each other. I love him Lord, and You placed this love in my heart. Help me love him like You love the church, help me love him like Hosea. Lord, You've put us together.

Lord in everything, may my desire align with Yours, I love You more. I know that all I do is Your plan, let me keep living in Your grave and mercy every day.