It's still very tough to keep thinking of Dave almost every moment of every day, and even tougher when I'm waiting for him to just talk to me. But for now, there is peace which can't be explained by anything else. It is from God.
His love is keeping me alive and He reminds me that His mercies are new every day. He loves me every day and does not tire, He holds me especially in trying times like these.
Though I'm somewhat dying inside, I take comfort in his silent, because it means that he's having a difficult time as he contemplates. And that means that he still loves me, thankfully. This detail is both a relief and a test of my patience. But it's ok, I'll wait out, and not pressure him. I'll wait every day for the times when we would go back to normal conversations. Hopefully it'll progress quickly, I hope, by the start of next year.
I just wish he would trust me more, and take me at my word when I say we can do it. May not be easy but it's still very possible to keep following what we've always planned to do.
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