Long shot he says

Yesterday was a very rough day.

I cried until there was no more sound.

I cried because I kept fighting for us, but he doesn't seem to want me anymore. Even though he says part of him still does, why do his actions not match?

Why is it he thinks that breaking up is the best solution, when there is so much hope and possibility of good?

How did he get so pessimistic? Is it because he hasn't seen me for months? But then it wasn't my doing! I've been trying to talk to him, I want things back to normal. To me this is merely another conflict we should just settle. It's nothing serious. After all, I did give in, I did say I'll move over.

He thinks that cutting it now saves us from more hurt, but he doesn't realise that not giving us this chance to work through this one conflict is sticking a knife that cannot be removed. It'll stay with me for the rest of my life because I'll always be wondering what I did that was so wrong, what haven't I apologised for, what other misunderstandings are there not resolved. There'll always be these questions and the feel of rejection - that I'm not even worth giving a shot. So what if it's a long shot. A shot is a shot and I'll take it any day.

I know what I want and I'll keep fighting until my bones break and my breath ends. I won't give up.