I'm having a hard time.

Today there was a van driving at a really high speed and I didn't even think hard about it. I just wanted to wait until it came nearer, and step in front of it.

I can't get proper closure because something is withheld from me.

I don't understand the real reason why he wants to break up with me.

What part of me is so detestable? Or is it really just about moving over?

I want to tell him that I've found ways, that it's possible to move over, all is not lost!