Things I desire for my cell:

1. Unity, hunger for the Word, heart for the lost in my cellgroup.

Honestly, there is no unity. And because there is no unity, it's so difficult to reach out to the people around us, in our school, our friends. If we're not standing together, our attempts to reach out to the community won't be very successful. It could, but it'll be really hard to achieve.

2. Transparency and support in my cellgroup.

To me, a cellgroup's fundamental purpose is to edify. We gather to encourage, support and strengthen each other's walks with God. We fellowship so that we can learn more about God together, discover things about God we didn't know, praise Him for all the good things He has done and thank Him for all that He has provided. It's also to discuss our questions about the Bible and God that we're not sure of.

How to get support when nobody wants to open up in the first place? We're all just keeping all our thoughts to ourselves because of pride. We don't want people to see that we struggle with weaknesses.



My heart is pained, and I am burdened by the terrible state my cell is in. For some of us, our hearts are not even desperate for God, we treat Fridays as a time to chat, we meet up because it's a habit, not because we want to grow in love, wisdom and faith.

We drink and club because we like it, we don't see anything wrong with it. In fact, we go after cell on fridays.

We go into relationships because in Perth, we're lonely and we want companionship. We want someone to talk to, to be with, to love and to be loved. We don't think about the future when we enter a relationship. We don't seek Godly counsel or the advice of our cellmates.

In cell, we make sure we portray ourselves as proper Christians though, we agree with statements that sound wise, we agree in prayer, our answers are always politically right and most of the time, shallow. We are, to put crudely, hypocrites, but hey, that's ok, we're cool like that. We're drinking, clubbing Christians, we're open about it, and we think it's fine.

With a cell like that, how do you expect me to be happy? It's not just for my benefit and selfish desire for a cell that supports and grows me, I don't wish I had a perfect cell so that I can spill out my sorrows and get people to give me verses to encourage me and to pray for and with me. In fact, that's the least of my worries, that's the last thing I desire from my cell.

I worry about our individual walks with God. It's not up to me to judge, so I can't simply say that we're not right with God. I worry about the image we give to our pre-believing friends. They'll say "oh so Christians are like that, hey, they're not any different from us."

of course, it's not all of my cell. i'm thankful that there is at least a handful of us that are still standing firm in the spirit.