So. These few weeks have gotten me very uncomfortable thinking about everything and I realise that all's actually not well, though I always thought it was.

Points:

I'm selfish.
I'm hypocritical.
I'm too trusting.

Take aways:

I'm still human and it's ok to be sad sometimes, or emo. It's not wrong.
Some people actually really care, so I don't have to keep everything to myself.
Just say what you think, don't pretend everything's good when you jolly well know that normally it's not supposed to be ok.

I've got to learn to be more aware of my surroundings, and aware of people's actions, not just my own.

Basically I should be less "cool" and allow myself to be more "vulnerable". I've got to allow myself to feel and to show hurt.

All along, I've been pushing all that negative emotions away cos I don't like it. It's part of life, I've just gotta learn to embrace it. I've gotta get over it, not avoid it.

Who cares what people think?

Oh yeah. I've got to be less self-conscious. Now that's a bit harder to do.