I feel like such a failure.

Seriously, I'm nothing but dumb. Stupid.

Oh Cheryl, must breathe.

Maybe I'm just not working hard enough.

But I'm really studying so much.

I feel like it's not fair. The amount I put in is not equal to the results I get.

So ok fine, I'm stupid.

Urgh. I feel so disgusted with myself.

Today is the first time in my life I've thought of myself as worthless. Useless. Like junk. Or worse.

But no, I'm not suicidal.

Today is the first time ever since I've been here that the water in my eyes made it out of my eyes.

The first and last time. Never again.