I wonder how much of myself I should put on the blog. Afterall, people still do read it. What if my J1s chanced upon this page and they see how ugly their leader can get. Like WOAH. My cgl has unpleasant memories and thoughts, and she does go through times where she doesn't like things. WOAH my cgl got secrets. She never writes in detail. Everything is so emo. WOAH my cgl can be emo. I can do the same.

There is a responsibility I have to take. And yet, if I am not able to let myself blog to release the stress, it's gonna build.