My papers are extremely disappointing. And I already know what grade I'm gonna get. Haha.

Econs paper this morning.

I handed in my name and class. Cos thats what the instructions on the cover page said. You still gotta hand in blank paper and your name and class.

I've got most of the answers in my brain but somehow I couldn't put it down on the paper, not even planning on the question paper. I really did have the answers in my head though. So for the whole 2hours 15 minutes I simply stared at the question paper. Ok not really. I stared at it for an hour and gave up and slept through the rest of the time. Haha what a joke Cheryl.

I didn't feel anything after the paper. No joy no sorrow. Haha. Maybe I just put my feelings behind a shelf somewhere in my brain. Maybe I was extremely sad, but so sad I just couldn't cry. Haha.

GP in the afternoon was much better. Much.

I can tell Mummy and Daddy don't know what to do. Mummy said,"Aiyah why. I'm also not like those parents who put pressure on you must pass must pass. Nobody's putting pressure on you. Why you go pressure yourself? Maybe I should use reverse psychology and put pressure on you.."

And Daddy went," Just relax, I tell you if you get a mental block just close your eyes for 15 minutes and relax. Don't be so stressed. Say a prayer."

I couldn't help but look at myself from a "lit" point of view. That's what studying lit does to you. You look at everything differently. Oh dear I hope after JC when I don't take lit anymore I'll stop this "lit" point of view.

And I thought of some factors that maybe had some effect on me thus resulting in this absurd behavior of not being able to perform during exams. I didn't know I was affected by these things. Haha. But it made sense.

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I saw that person today and I felt weird. I think. I dunno.

Then I told someone about it. I know I should share but at the same time I knew I shouldn't have done so. Doesn't matter. We both agreed to forget we ever spoke about it. We agreed I didn't say anything in the first place.

Alright 6 hours worth of paper tomorrow! I'm so exciting I can't wait.