tm camp is over. and i am a brand new person.

i just love meeting God during camps like these.

1st day. went to camp early and found out i was the only girl in my cg. not bad for starters eh.
even cgl was jon.

played ice breakers and went to fetch christina jie from work. came back in time for sermon.
then at night, played the missionary game. it was really really freaky.

we were chinese people. in china. and there were 4 missionaries. we were supposed to help the missionaries transport stuff. like bring bibles to this secret room in the school, where 3 people would receive us. we had to help copy letters and bring to other missionaries too. there were 20 bibles hidden in the whole school. we had to find them and bring them to the secret room.

shukun was the one who explained the game and he was all like," there are spies in this room. " these spies will catch us and bring us to this torture chamber. they will pour water on us, slap us, ask us a lot of questions and stuff. if they find materials on you, thats even worse.

the best is not to let them catch you.

then he gave out 10 more bibles. nicole and i knew about the whole game in the beginning, so we made a pact to be partners. we were praying silently that shukun would not give us the bible. but unfortunately, he gave the last one to nicole. we were shocked and frightened. shukun started to pray for us when all of a sudden the lights went out and people screamed. nicole and i were near the door so we ran out and hid. the whole game was like dang frightening. like when you walked to the back of the school, you could hear people screaming and shouting, people being tortured and people torturing. tables were slammed, doors were banged.. oh my gosh.

nicole and i were like terrified, walking here and there, finding a place to hide. we found the missionaries and got a letter to copy. it was in chinese and i didnt know how to write some words. oh welps.

we knew before the whole game who were the spies and stuff,, so when we saw them, we just walked away. haha.

during the whole game i was so freaked out. my heartbeat was like very very fast. i even planned to like have breathing difficulties if anyone wanted to bring me away. haha.

when the whole game ended, i was so so so happy. then as expected, cos of my retardedness, i cried once we were dismissed from the hall to supper.

then when praying during discussion, i cried again. had a talk with alvin about the whole thing, then keith kor saw us and shooed alvin away. then he started talking to me, telling me loads of stuff too. i just like listened and listened. then shufen jie and amy jie came to talk to me. then like consoled me and prayed for me. thank God for friends. i think kor feels wierd cos i didnt like talk at all. ahaha..

2nd day, sermon in the morning, games in the afternoon. the whole game was tiring. ran from edmund's water station to church in 20 minutes. woohoo. fats lost.

at night. we had another sermon and an alter call. the alter call was for jonahs. ( those people who were running away) i didnt know why but i went to the front. and i just stood there. i heard people crying beside me and all, but i didnt feel anything. i was envious.

then i just closed my eyes. soon, i saw a shadow of someone standing in front of me. that someone prayed a while and my emotions swung 180 degrees immefiately, i started crying and crying. and then i couldnt stand anymore. it was the Holy spirit..

some people helped me to the floor slowly. basically. the same thing happened to me as the previous camp, but this time, it was much worse. i was shivering and shaking and a lot of people prayed for me. uncle william, pastor dave... pastor dave told me to illustration of the small dog with a big bark. i remember last year amy jie decribed me as having spasms or something like that...

i was alright for a few minutes in the middle of this whole thing. amy teo jie tried to get me to talk but i just stared into space, into her eyes. i couldnt say a word. and then i started crying again. all the bad pst came back to me. right from young when i can remember. all the humiliation, the pain, the torture, the sadness. it all came back to me that night. i remembered so many bad incidents. i thought i forgot and forgave. but i had only compress it.

after a while, they forced me stand cos i wasnt getting any better and soon, i was alright. i couldnt walk and my hands were numb. ian daddy, gracie jie, adele jie came to help me walk. i was like a baby, learning how to walk. i couldnt even lift my legs. too painful..

everything felt like wierd. of course, soon, with a lot of help, my limbs regained conciousness.

that night, all my pain, all my sorrows, all the humiliation and torture i went through, i traded for God's happiness. =)

3rd day, muscle aches everywhere. sermon in the morning. captains ball competition in the afternoon. whole afternoon. there were lots and lots of people. daddy, joash, chris brought like a team each, so there were about 40 plus people from innova. madness. there was an acjc team. strong but too bad, they were out before my team finished playing other teams yet. and my team lost to theirs in the beginning. haha..

oh, and my team had nicole, servant mella, marcus, marcus, shi xiong, daniel loke, and one more guy.

night time, the leaders prayed for everyone personally. angel came and so did huiru. everyone was crying i think.

last day. we had a short message in the morning followed by a voice recording of uncle charles. then passing the batons and prizes. after everything ended, we cleaned the whole school and played somemore.

so there. another year, another camp. all over. so quickly. but i dun want to move on...i love this spiritual high-ness..