yesterday. joanne back already. nicole and i gave her the card and earings. nicole makes nice earings. and i am still waiting for her parents to allow her earholes. purposely gave her earings. cos joanne would definitely tell her parents we gave earings and maybe her parents would finally allow her earholes. so from now on i am gg to give joanne earings. ahaha..

halfway through games, kor kor came to find me. then he told me that he was leaving. i thought kor was leaving later so i was not mentally prepared. all i could do then was to give him a hug and a handshake. then i continued playing.

either the truth didnt sink in yet or i didnt believe him that he was gg off so soon. then later when i went out of the sanctuary to find him i couldnt. then the truth sank in. kor was gone.

i walked to the place where i cried the week before and i cried again. nicole jie was there for me. i didnt have to tell her anything. she knew what was on my mind.

after tm, went to eat dinner and study at toa payoh long johns silver.

at home, i chatted on the house phone and left my handphone in the other room. i was having fun chatting. then when i returned to my handphone, i saw 2 missed calls. kor tried to call me before he left. he tried to call me twice. but i was busy having fun chatting. then i cried the second time. i tried calling him but his phone was turned off already.

i smsed him. asking him to return to singapore immediately. asking him for the impossible.

i blame myself for not keeping my handphone with me. so many people have already told me to keep my phone with me in case someone wants to contact me. i didnt know i missed kor so much. like the last time he went away i didnt cry so much.

kor, you made me cry. how are you gg to make up for my tears?