i am so stupid. so retarted. crying at the slightest things.

just a bit of fright and poof..

rain.

i remember when i was in primary school, daddy had to go to switzerland for 4 days. i cried so badly at the departure gates. so dumb.

joanne leave, cry.
kor leave, cry.

once, bryan and i were swimming at night. then he didnt want to go up yet after a while. so i went up first. i took the lift, then when i reached level4, i stepped out.

i rang the doorbell and then he tapped me on the back without noise. i got i fright. i mean like i would not have expected him to run up 4 storeys just to catch up with me and tap me on the back. like i took less than 5 seconds to step out of the lift and ring the doorbell. i wouldnt expect him to appear all of a sudden.

i cant describe it but yea. i got one mighty shock and within seconds, i started crying. so much so that, even after mummy tried to console me, and reprimand bryan, which took about a minute or two, i was still crying.

rargh. dumb girl.

then today i was concentrating on my amaths question when liyun came up behind me and clashed the cymbals beside my ear. oh btw, she's in band if you were wondering. ( thus the access to cymbals) but anyway, beef captured everything on her eye cam.

after liyun clashed the cymbals, she went," oh. cheryl is going to cry. did you see her shocked expression?"

true enough, tears started to form and streak down my face but i found it a wee bit funny so i was like laughing at the same time. sorta like mixed emotions. haha. funny.

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this is another journey in my life where the road is not smooth but strewn with rocks and glass.

dad is not in a good mood and i am in the mood to answer his remarks. so because he cant out talk me most of the time, he gets crazier after everytime i oppose.

bryan is trying to be cool as mature as well, so he is trying to refuse to lend me his guitar. doing things that he thinks would make him grown up. well, all i can say is that he kinda sucks at these. oh but he has the same stubborness and bravery every guy has. like he is super patient, waiting for me to fall into his traps. and his eyes are mighty powerful as well. once he spots a loophole, he dashes for it, and he kinds loops you as well, not giving and space to back out or move forward. and he can insist you do things that are totally not polite. like he doesnt have a clue what embarassment is and what courtesy is.

whatever la. anyway, mum is not say the best as well.

yea. i am sorta at to blame for things as well.

so yea. the rocks and glass strewn cement road.

oh yea.. i realised how much a smile could do. like if you say the same sentence with and without a smile, it would be very different and the person receiving the sentence would feel totally different.

example..

" alright.. i'll give it to you...here.. blah blah ( and the person gives you some information you want) blah blah. sorry, i have a lot of work to do now.."

now how would that feel? sorta guilty? sorry? regretful?

then imagine the same person saying the same thing, but instead, with smile.

" alright.. i will give it to you...here.. =) blah blah
( information given) blah blah.. sorry, i have a lot of work to do now =) "

i would definitely not feel guilty. i would feel happy and all...

yea. so people. smile. =)