there is distrust everywhere. they distrust me, i distrust them. go on, bug my phone, pay money to get smses people send me, go drastic, take away everything. eventually, you are the ones who lose, not me. think about it.

this is my life, not yours, i know, my life is so much better than yours, so is that why you want to destroy mine?? if it is, you guys are selfish.

this is definitely not care and concern. this is DEFINITELY NOT care and concern. you know what this is? this is destruction.

i CAN take care of myself, i KNOW what kind of people i can mix with, i HAVE self control. its your problem if you guys dont believe these. i can do nothing to make you all believe me.

actually, think of the reason why i hide so many things from you all. why i dont tell you things, why you have to resort to bugging my stuff..why i have changed so much.

the reason, i dont trust you all. but why do i not trust you all? why?

because you dont act like you guys are trustable. you take action after i tell you guys things. take bryan for instance.

every little thing he tells you, you take action. councelling, writing letters to people of position. blah blah..

yes. you guys have been through more since you guys are older. but what happenned to you when you were younger, all the drama stuff you see on tv that you have experienced. doesnt mean it will happen to me. not everybody is as unlucky or unfortunate.

if you want something, dont snatch it away from other people.. but instead, plan on how to get it. either go buy another one, use reverse psychology, blah blah. i dunno.

i know my limits and i wont cross them, even if you tell me too.

now i really cannot trust you guys, you were the ones who broke this chain of communication. YOU ARE THE ONES WHO TRY TO BREAK MY LIFE. I HATE THIS.

in the past, no matter how much i hated something, no matter how much
i didnt like the way thing were going, the heat would go up to medium for only a minute then go back to small then the heat would be gone.

now, the heat has gone to extra extra high, and has burnt the housse down. now, who turned on the heat?? WHO TURNED ON THE HEAT???!!!