Serious Conversations

Today was just a regular Saturday.

I went for brunch with Ty and his mum, and the afternoon was ours.

We went to get a massage, chilled back at his place, and then met Mich and Cheng for dinner and an escape room.

On the way home, I asked him if he liked me, and if he knew that I did too. Obviously he said yes. But then I asked him how he knows, and he replied that he didn't, he just felt. And I wasn't really ok with that.

We spent an hour or so in the car talking about it, and one of the questions I had was, what do I do to make him feel loved? This strange boy said he wished I did less, and that he really appreciates a strong independent woman, not subservient.

So opposite of what I believe in. The Bible calls me to be submissive! I then began to ask if I was overbearing since I've been trying to do many things, many different things, many small things to show that I love him. That's how we got to him telling me I could do less.

We hit many more topics tonight, and I wish we had more of this. I learnt so many things about this man, in just one conversation. Though I wish our relationship was more normal, or more in line with what the Bible says, I know each person is different and so are their personal preferences.

Lord, I pray for wisdom, in understanding him, and for peace to rest in Your perfect plan and perfect timing, to not rush him into a life commitment but to grow deeper in love every day, and for us to see it and feel it.

A song for someone I loved

Found a piece of paper in one of my handbags.

Wrote this maybe a year ago.

Maybe one day I'll fine tune it and record it.



I know how it started
Why we slowly became strangers again
From that point til we parted
You know my feelings always remained

And even then, I still couldn't let you go
It's not easy
Cos all I remember is your voice telling me you love me

So how, how did we get so far?
From each other
Was it me, my pride or my blindness to being in the dark?
Can we turn back time, and say words that'll save the day?
Don't wanna give up so quick
Just don't wanna walk away
I'll wait

I'll wait and meet you here