Some part of me doesn't want it anymore

I never cried so hard whilst driving before. It's a first. 

Throughout the journey I asked myself what was I doing with my life, and why was I doing all that I am now? Was there anything I would change?

I would quit honours, and start working. I would 

You know what.

I don't even want to think about this anymore. Save me the pain. Literally. It hurts.