I'm not very happy today.

It's looking a lot like UWA.

I'm feeling more neutral now, about going overseas, not so negative anymore.

I feel like, what the heck. I give up.

I just can't bear to think of change, when I come back, when I see people moving on.

Right now,

I feel sad.

I feel a little bit lost.

I feel very tired, but I can't sleep.

I feel like crying a bit, but I can't cry.

It's all now, and today.

And tomorrow when I go to work, it'll be gone.

I didn't sleep on the bus to work. Not even tired. But I didn't have much sleep at night either.

Monash and UWA. 7 more unis need to reply me, asap.

Have I really gotten over everything?

Maybe.

=)

I try ok I try.

And today I tried to talk, maybe not at the best time,

but you just shot me down and pushed me away.

Nice.

I tried to be nice, I tried to be what you want me to be, the me in the past, whatever, whoever she is. But.

Nice work, dad. What a dad. What a mum. What an awesome family.

Ironic how I work at FOCUS ON THE FAMILY.

I feel TOTALLY abandoned.

For today.

Tomorrow I'll wake up and non of these feelings I have now will still be present.