A levels in 4 days. I haven't touched human geog.
Not a single tick for lit.
Zhuang-hui my gp tuition teacher said he was going to strangle me when I made some ridiculous mistakes.
And yet. All I feel is a slight disappointment in myself, for not being able to treat A Levels with as much "respect" it is due.
Come on man. People have said it's the toughest paper I'm gonna be sitting for. I don't feel any stress at all.
Lit? I should be stressed over lit. And geog. Yeah geog.
Let's not get started on math. And econ.
Which is pretty much everything already.
Maybe God wants me to fail everything and retake.
Maybe it's a punishment for ignoring the voice in my head, telling me to quit dance.
Thursday, October 30, 2008
2 people blatantly cut my taxi queue this morning on my way to school. Maybe I was invisible. Haha. One man one woman. The lady stood right in front of me. And the guy, waiting at the small lane beside the main road, then when no taxis seemed to be coming, he walked in front of the lady. EVEN WORSE. Haha. Peace peace. Nevermind, maybe I was really invisible. Haha.
And then. After studying the afternoon away, Jem's dad gave me a lift to the mrt station. I greeted him as uncle on sight. OH MY TIANS. FYI, Jem's dad is Mr Ong, one of the physics TEACHERS in school.
I dropped the papers I was holding twice on the way to his car. Haha. Maybe I was still in shock over my carelessness and lack of thought as I greeted his dad.
When he dropped me off, I made sure I said thanks Mr Ong. Haha.
Chinatown studying with Daryl and Eliel. Daryl bought 20 wo-tiehs to share. But ok la, guys can eat. Like EAT.
Studied a bit more before going home, studied somemore with Jo who was already at my house. HAHA.
I told her about the NZ rugby 7s team that came to my school to train today.
THEY WERE UBER COOL.
100% hotness, 100% fit.
Arrived in school just in time to see them do the hakka. And later after their training, they walked past where I was studying. I purposely stopped writing to look at them. Most of them smiled at me, and one even winked. I TELL YOU I ALMOST FAINTED LAH. I'm kidding. HAHA. But there was this one guy, who looked about my age. HOTTEST.
Ah I want him as my boyfriend. The whole world would be so jealous. He's really damn hot. HAHA. If only his character was as good as he was hot. And know me.
I am so superficial. NEVERMIND. Haha!
Once in a while, indulging in ideas that are shallow as such and impossible as such makes me laugh. =)
And then. After studying the afternoon away, Jem's dad gave me a lift to the mrt station. I greeted him as uncle on sight. OH MY TIANS. FYI, Jem's dad is Mr Ong, one of the physics TEACHERS in school.
I dropped the papers I was holding twice on the way to his car. Haha. Maybe I was still in shock over my carelessness and lack of thought as I greeted his dad.
When he dropped me off, I made sure I said thanks Mr Ong. Haha.
Chinatown studying with Daryl and Eliel. Daryl bought 20 wo-tiehs to share. But ok la, guys can eat. Like EAT.
Studied a bit more before going home, studied somemore with Jo who was already at my house. HAHA.
I told her about the NZ rugby 7s team that came to my school to train today.
THEY WERE UBER COOL.
100% hotness, 100% fit.
Arrived in school just in time to see them do the hakka. And later after their training, they walked past where I was studying. I purposely stopped writing to look at them. Most of them smiled at me, and one even winked. I TELL YOU I ALMOST FAINTED LAH. I'm kidding. HAHA. But there was this one guy, who looked about my age. HOTTEST.
Ah I want him as my boyfriend. The whole world would be so jealous. He's really damn hot. HAHA. If only his character was as good as he was hot. And know me.
I am so superficial. NEVERMIND. Haha!
Once in a while, indulging in ideas that are shallow as such and impossible as such makes me laugh. =)
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
I switched my aircon on again after my parents tried to wake me up. Snoozed from 7 to 10. Cheryl is be pro.
Studied the day and night away. With Jem in school, then Jo at home.
Studied till we SIAN then we watched freedom writers.
Heh. And then studied somemore until 9.
Chompchomped and frolicked til 1030 before we came back to studying until 1am.
I need to bathe and sleep and make sure I wake up and get my parents to send me to school. Otherwise God knows what time I'll snooze till this time.
Productive day.
Tomorrow's schedule:
8am to 230pm: School to study.
230 to ??pm: Consultation.
?? to 730pm: Chinatown study.
8pm to ??pm: Jo study.
My life is full of question marks. Heh.
I'm happier today than yesterday. Cos I made more ticks on my 4 sheets of mahjong paper checklist of chapters I need to complete before A levels.
Studied the day and night away. With Jem in school, then Jo at home.
Studied till we SIAN then we watched freedom writers.
Heh. And then studied somemore until 9.
Chompchomped and frolicked til 1030 before we came back to studying until 1am.
I need to bathe and sleep and make sure I wake up and get my parents to send me to school. Otherwise God knows what time I'll snooze till this time.
Productive day.
Tomorrow's schedule:
8am to 230pm: School to study.
230 to ??pm: Consultation.
?? to 730pm: Chinatown study.
8pm to ??pm: Jo study.
My life is full of question marks. Heh.
I'm happier today than yesterday. Cos I made more ticks on my 4 sheets of mahjong paper checklist of chapters I need to complete before A levels.
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
Reality only just set in, I might not be able to complete revising half my syllabus, for all subjects.
Even so, I feel fine. My future might be screwed. But so?
I might not be able to eat ice cream every day, or switch on the air-conditioning when I sleep next time.
HORRIBLE thought. May they never happen.
But even if they do.
Even if I might not be able to afford a part time helper to sweep the floor, or watch DVDs on 50inch,
I'll be happy cos that's what God planned.
He probably. No. He most DEFINITELY has His reasons. =)
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After GP tuition, Jo and Beeth came over and studied the afternoon away.
Went for dinner at PS and then I broke the law of love.
HAHAHA. Couldn't help it.
BUT. IT WAS GOOD.
;)
Even so, I feel fine. My future might be screwed. But so?
I might not be able to eat ice cream every day, or switch on the air-conditioning when I sleep next time.
HORRIBLE thought. May they never happen.
But even if they do.
Even if I might not be able to afford a part time helper to sweep the floor, or watch DVDs on 50inch,
I'll be happy cos that's what God planned.
He probably. No. He most DEFINITELY has His reasons. =)
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After GP tuition, Jo and Beeth came over and studied the afternoon away.
Went for dinner at PS and then I broke the law of love.
HAHAHA. Couldn't help it.
BUT. IT WAS GOOD.
;)
Sunday, October 26, 2008
I fear losing friends to the world.
It pains me to see them so near me but nowhere close.
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Some things have to be kept within me. So hard to do, but a must in order not to cause anyone to fall. To keep things as stable as possible. For as long as possible.
Who wants to hear them anyway.
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If I take it, I might possibly have to don an uncomfortable mask. I want to be free and not hold back, I want to be as true as I can, but then the world might not approve my ways.
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I'm just rambling.
It pains me to see them so near me but nowhere close.
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Some things have to be kept within me. So hard to do, but a must in order not to cause anyone to fall. To keep things as stable as possible. For as long as possible.
Who wants to hear them anyway.
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If I take it, I might possibly have to don an uncomfortable mask. I want to be free and not hold back, I want to be as true as I can, but then the world might not approve my ways.
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I'm just rambling.
It was difficult not to understand what God wants to tell us.
Just look around you.
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Saw Trey in church. Lil guy's damn cute! Haha. I'll never get enough of him.
I bet when he grows up he'll be hot. ;)
Saw Jonnie Mann during lunch, playing with an umbrella 1.5 times his height. Hahaha.
Yami-ed. Wheatgerm yums.
Met Nicole and Matt at yami and we chatted for some time before we went to Novena with the guys and Jess.
NO SPACE at TTS. NO SPACE at the glass house.
What space we found eventually was outdoors, susceptible to sun rays. Rickety tables didn't make things better. But eventually it got too comfortable that I managed to nap even after Java chip. Awesome place huh. Haha. Studied damn little.
Back at Bishan on the way home, I went back to yami and packed some wheatgerm home. Woohoo!
And then I got lazy and wanted to reach home fast. So... ;)
I need to chiong GP again.
Just look around you.
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Saw Trey in church. Lil guy's damn cute! Haha. I'll never get enough of him.
I bet when he grows up he'll be hot. ;)
Saw Jonnie Mann during lunch, playing with an umbrella 1.5 times his height. Hahaha.
Yami-ed. Wheatgerm yums.
Met Nicole and Matt at yami and we chatted for some time before we went to Novena with the guys and Jess.
NO SPACE at TTS. NO SPACE at the glass house.
What space we found eventually was outdoors, susceptible to sun rays. Rickety tables didn't make things better. But eventually it got too comfortable that I managed to nap even after Java chip. Awesome place huh. Haha. Studied damn little.
Back at Bishan on the way home, I went back to yami and packed some wheatgerm home. Woohoo!
And then I got lazy and wanted to reach home fast. So... ;)
I need to chiong GP again.
Friday's prayer. Island Cremary.
Chiong GP. Damn tired.
Saturday morning.
Chiong GP.
Econs tuition.
Lisar selling man-made pearls. DAMN NICE. I WANT the blue earrings. $30.
Case study pro now. I'm kidding. Gotta practice lots.
Chiong GP.
GP tuition.
Went through essays, outlines and compre.
Need more practice. =(
TM.
Was half hoping that Jonah would just TURN UP. Nope. He didn't.
Didn't really learn anything today. Wasn't absorbing.
James asked us what was our most memorable punishment during CG time as an opener.
Suddenly, a whole lot of stuff flooded my mind and I struggled to stay afloat in all the thoughts. A lot of insecurities, a lot of forgiveness I had to regive, a lot of sorry(s) to say, a big lack of faith, worries, sorrow.
I excused myself, sat against the door in the toilet and cried and recommitted everything to Christ, I told him all that was on my mind, even though He already knows. I just had to verbalise.
One thing I got from God was: even if there are a million loud noises around, if you really want to seek Him, you can always hear Him loud and clear.
The other noises would somehow disappear.
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Thanks John. Brotherhood yo.
Chiong GP. Damn tired.
Saturday morning.
Chiong GP.
Econs tuition.
Lisar selling man-made pearls. DAMN NICE. I WANT the blue earrings. $30.
Case study pro now. I'm kidding. Gotta practice lots.
Chiong GP.
GP tuition.
Went through essays, outlines and compre.
Need more practice. =(
TM.
Was half hoping that Jonah would just TURN UP. Nope. He didn't.
Didn't really learn anything today. Wasn't absorbing.
James asked us what was our most memorable punishment during CG time as an opener.
Suddenly, a whole lot of stuff flooded my mind and I struggled to stay afloat in all the thoughts. A lot of insecurities, a lot of forgiveness I had to regive, a lot of sorry(s) to say, a big lack of faith, worries, sorrow.
I excused myself, sat against the door in the toilet and cried and recommitted everything to Christ, I told him all that was on my mind, even though He already knows. I just had to verbalise.
One thing I got from God was: even if there are a million loud noises around, if you really want to seek Him, you can always hear Him loud and clear.
The other noises would somehow disappear.
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Thanks John. Brotherhood yo.
Friday, October 24, 2008
Audrey's birthday was chocked full with surprises even the rest of us didn't anticipate.
On the way to Sushi-tei, Mich and I were saying how the planners are always more excited than the birthday girl when preparing and planning all the surprises.
Aud's birthday was exciting both while preparing and while carrying out. Serious. Full of pop ups we didn't expect.
What we did:
Met for Sushi-tei dinner.
Beeth appeared after telling Aud she had tuition.
Had the waitress put page-ups holding Aud's picture and wishes of her happy birthday on the conveyor belt. Heh.
I tell you Aud damn blind. The first page-up came along. And I was like," Aud help me take that sushi!"
She took a plate beside the page up, rolled her eyes and was like," Cheryl, SINCE WHEN you eat this one ah?"
So I said, "Oh put back put back."
She put it back right NEXT to the page up and continued eating.
The rest of us were in shock for like a second before Jo said, " LOOK AUDREY!"
Haha.
After dinner we went to dabao prata for Bryan. Halfway there we surprised Aud with the hat. Heh. We had a hard time trying to convince Audrey to wear it. Haha.
The prata man gave Aud a flower.
Went to chompchomp to find Xiujuan and Cuiyun since Mich misses them so. And almost every stall owner gave Audrey a flower as we repeated the happy birthday song about a million times.
Walked to the pet shop which was beside ice cube. Jo had to get something for her dogs. Standing outside ice cube was torture as Aud again didn't see her face plastered on the glass door. So we had to ask her what was that. HAHA.
Inside, we went to the cozy corner which was already pre-decorated, played games, ate dessert. CAM WHORED LIKE MAD.
Charades was damn funny. ESPECIALLY Aud whose word NOBODY could guess.
Sundae. And she kept drawing gridlines and pointing to the light. Eventually we guessed it, then after her turn I asked what were the gridlines. And she said, " CALENDAR!"
I tell you we laughed until we almost fainted. Haha.
This group of guys who were at chomps and helped sing happy birthday followed us to ice cube and requested us to go out to their table where they again sang happy birthday.
Afterward, one of them came to out corner, gave us his name handphone and email for us to send him the picture we took. Haha.
Possibly one of the happiest days of my life. I didn't like how I looked in the pictures taken though. =(
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Jonah's not coming tomorrow. I wonder if it's cos I didn't pray.
I'm a lil disappointed and paranoid at the same time. Afterall, it's my first attempt to bring back someone the 2nd week. Is it me, my friends, or really simply cos he's gotta rest?
I choose to believe he's gotta rest. =)
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Doing GP essay now. I'm doing last minute work for tomorrow's tuition. I am sad. Anyone wants to help me, give me points. Boo I wanna cry.
On the way to Sushi-tei, Mich and I were saying how the planners are always more excited than the birthday girl when preparing and planning all the surprises.
Aud's birthday was exciting both while preparing and while carrying out. Serious. Full of pop ups we didn't expect.
What we did:
Met for Sushi-tei dinner.
Beeth appeared after telling Aud she had tuition.
Had the waitress put page-ups holding Aud's picture and wishes of her happy birthday on the conveyor belt. Heh.
I tell you Aud damn blind. The first page-up came along. And I was like," Aud help me take that sushi!"
She took a plate beside the page up, rolled her eyes and was like," Cheryl, SINCE WHEN you eat this one ah?"
So I said, "Oh put back put back."
She put it back right NEXT to the page up and continued eating.
The rest of us were in shock for like a second before Jo said, " LOOK AUDREY!"
Haha.
After dinner we went to dabao prata for Bryan. Halfway there we surprised Aud with the hat. Heh. We had a hard time trying to convince Audrey to wear it. Haha.
The prata man gave Aud a flower.
Went to chompchomp to find Xiujuan and Cuiyun since Mich misses them so. And almost every stall owner gave Audrey a flower as we repeated the happy birthday song about a million times.
Walked to the pet shop which was beside ice cube. Jo had to get something for her dogs. Standing outside ice cube was torture as Aud again didn't see her face plastered on the glass door. So we had to ask her what was that. HAHA.
Inside, we went to the cozy corner which was already pre-decorated, played games, ate dessert. CAM WHORED LIKE MAD.
Charades was damn funny. ESPECIALLY Aud whose word NOBODY could guess.
Sundae. And she kept drawing gridlines and pointing to the light. Eventually we guessed it, then after her turn I asked what were the gridlines. And she said, " CALENDAR!"
I tell you we laughed until we almost fainted. Haha.
This group of guys who were at chomps and helped sing happy birthday followed us to ice cube and requested us to go out to their table where they again sang happy birthday.
Afterward, one of them came to out corner, gave us his name handphone and email for us to send him the picture we took. Haha.
Possibly one of the happiest days of my life. I didn't like how I looked in the pictures taken though. =(
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Jonah's not coming tomorrow. I wonder if it's cos I didn't pray.
I'm a lil disappointed and paranoid at the same time. Afterall, it's my first attempt to bring back someone the 2nd week. Is it me, my friends, or really simply cos he's gotta rest?
I choose to believe he's gotta rest. =)
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Doing GP essay now. I'm doing last minute work for tomorrow's tuition. I am sad. Anyone wants to help me, give me points. Boo I wanna cry.
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
I'm not studying much today. As in. Now. It's 3.15am and I'm going to bed.
Haha I'm sleeping early.
Date with Madam Ang later at 1030am.
And econs case study part c and d to write by 7 when Lisar comes.
And GP essay plus outlines to do before Zhuang-hui comes on saturday morning.
OH SHIZ I just realised I have Lisar on saturday morning too. HAHA ok then I'll just pull Lisar earlier and push Zhuang-hui back a lil. And then I would have at least 4 hours study before TM. Brilliant, I'm not slacking. Haha.
I want to watch HSM3.
Haha I'm sleeping early.
Date with Madam Ang later at 1030am.
And econs case study part c and d to write by 7 when Lisar comes.
And GP essay plus outlines to do before Zhuang-hui comes on saturday morning.
OH SHIZ I just realised I have Lisar on saturday morning too. HAHA ok then I'll just pull Lisar earlier and push Zhuang-hui back a lil. And then I would have at least 4 hours study before TM. Brilliant, I'm not slacking. Haha.
I want to watch HSM3.
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
Slept in Bryan's bed while he was at school.
I tell you, there is just something about his bed that makes it 30% more comfortable than mine. I'm guessing it's the sheets and kelvin's pillow (damn soft).
Heheh, I'm remind of the times I fell asleep in his bed and he had to sleep in the living room. =)
The purpose of my telling you all these random stuff is just to say BRYAN'S BED DAMN SHIOK. If you ever have the chance to come over, HEAD TO HIS BED. Haha.
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I thought of Eliel when I saw this.
HEH.
I try to eat this all the time, and he doesn't.
I tell you, there is just something about his bed that makes it 30% more comfortable than mine. I'm guessing it's the sheets and kelvin's pillow (damn soft).
Heheh, I'm remind of the times I fell asleep in his bed and he had to sleep in the living room. =)
The purpose of my telling you all these random stuff is just to say BRYAN'S BED DAMN SHIOK. If you ever have the chance to come over, HEAD TO HIS BED. Haha.
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I thought of Eliel when I saw this.
HEH.
I try to eat this all the time, and he doesn't.
Monday, October 20, 2008
I thank thee John Daryl Kingsly for helping me through the night, with the somewhat wack conversations we had. Ok, there were serious matters that we discussed too.. So it wasn't a waste of time at all. =)
I now know, and can tell, VERY accurately how much I like a guy. Heh.
But my "like" scale works only if the guy asks me out. Then I can tell you how much I like him. HAHA.
Happy figuring it out.
By the way, all these were part of the conversations, but not the "serious matters". HAHA.
Slept at 6am after studying a few more chapters of A and C. I am now at Act 3 Scene 11. But I have to go through them again. It's getting harder to understand.
Wanted to go over to Beeth's house to surprise her with Jo and Xiu and Cui at 7am but in the end I couldn't.
Woke up at 11am, and went to the airport to study somemore.
Left the place at 7 to Beeth's house.
Food, Mamma Mia, a bit more studying and then I came home. Will stay up again tonight, not too long though, got a date with Mdm Ang tomorrow haha.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY BEETH.
I made the picture brighter haha!
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Singapore is the world's 5th most competitive country after US, Switzerland, Denmark and Sweden.
Germany is 7th.
Japan is 9th.
Hong Kong is 11th.
UK is 12th.
Malaysia is 21th.
China is 30th.
Interesting.
I now know, and can tell, VERY accurately how much I like a guy. Heh.
But my "like" scale works only if the guy asks me out. Then I can tell you how much I like him. HAHA.
Happy figuring it out.
By the way, all these were part of the conversations, but not the "serious matters". HAHA.
Slept at 6am after studying a few more chapters of A and C. I am now at Act 3 Scene 11. But I have to go through them again. It's getting harder to understand.
Wanted to go over to Beeth's house to surprise her with Jo and Xiu and Cui at 7am but in the end I couldn't.
Woke up at 11am, and went to the airport to study somemore.
Left the place at 7 to Beeth's house.
Food, Mamma Mia, a bit more studying and then I came home. Will stay up again tonight, not too long though, got a date with Mdm Ang tomorrow haha.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY BEETH.
I made the picture brighter haha!
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Singapore is the world's 5th most competitive country after US, Switzerland, Denmark and Sweden.
Germany is 7th.
Japan is 9th.
Hong Kong is 11th.
UK is 12th.
Malaysia is 21th.
China is 30th.
Interesting.
Sunday, October 19, 2008
Saturday, October 18, 2008
Good day today. =)
Jonah came for TM today for the Jonah series HAHA, we had dinner, with just Jeanne Daryl Wyn Josh.
And then home.
But.
Random thoughts:
I miss my pink feather boa.
I watched some Animal Planet show quite a long while ago that showed tigers mating.
I watched Animal Planet just now and was reminded of it.
I think sex is really disgusting.
Hopefully by the time I'm married my opinion changes, otherwise, to my future husband: I'm sorry, too bad. HAHA. I'm not doing it. I'll kiss you but that's about it. So you better have much MUCH self control. Heh. I'm so evil.
And I'm gonna adopt. No childbearing sorry. Unless someone invents a machine to transfer a percentage of the pain.
HAHA I just made myself laugh from typing all these. HAHA.
These are really random, immature thoughts haha.
This is what reading too much Antony and Cleopatra does to you. Seriously, the whole play is about sex what. You can't blame, man. Haha.
Jonah came for TM today for the Jonah series HAHA, we had dinner, with just Jeanne Daryl Wyn Josh.
And then home.
But.
Random thoughts:
I miss my pink feather boa.
I watched some Animal Planet show quite a long while ago that showed tigers mating.
I watched Animal Planet just now and was reminded of it.
I think sex is really disgusting.
Hopefully by the time I'm married my opinion changes, otherwise, to my future husband: I'm sorry, too bad. HAHA. I'm not doing it. I'll kiss you but that's about it. So you better have much MUCH self control. Heh. I'm so evil.
And I'm gonna adopt. No childbearing sorry. Unless someone invents a machine to transfer a percentage of the pain.
HAHA I just made myself laugh from typing all these. HAHA.
These are really random, immature thoughts haha.
This is what reading too much Antony and Cleopatra does to you. Seriously, the whole play is about sex what. You can't blame, man. Haha.
Friday, October 17, 2008
Jonah's coming tomorrow! =D I'm happy, cos that means prayer works. Believe it or not, I'm not the only one who prayed.
And I'm glad I went for prayer today, although there were only less than 10 people.
Prata-ed after prayer. LONG TIME NO PRATA, it tasted good. Haha.
I had 5 hour consultation with Mdm Ang for math today. Brain dead. But feels good. Haha! My one hour consultation at 1030am just went on and on.. Past her lunch break, into some other H2 people's consultation slot, Roy's consultation slot, until 330pm, when Mdm Ang had consultation with Germies. =)
Then I went to LHK and did Act 2 Scene 6. Shioksie, Bryan brought the remaining tub of Haagen Daz for me.
And I'm glad I went for prayer today, although there were only less than 10 people.
Prata-ed after prayer. LONG TIME NO PRATA, it tasted good. Haha.
I had 5 hour consultation with Mdm Ang for math today. Brain dead. But feels good. Haha! My one hour consultation at 1030am just went on and on.. Past her lunch break, into some other H2 people's consultation slot, Roy's consultation slot, until 330pm, when Mdm Ang had consultation with Germies. =)
Then I went to LHK and did Act 2 Scene 6. Shioksie, Bryan brought the remaining tub of Haagen Daz for me.
Thursday, October 16, 2008
It's only a few hours after my last post. But God answered everything I had asked for.
I watched A Walk To Remember. And I heard Jamie, when in the hospital, say," Maybe God has bigger plans for me than I have for myself."
And normally people don't cry then, cos that's not the sad part of the movie. But I did. Cos I heard God speak.
In the movie, it was constantly stressed that love, and faith, was like the wind. You feel it, although you can't see it. Like God, I can't see Him, but I know He's real, cos I feel Him, I believe in Him like how I believe in wind.
I didn't happen to surf youtube for no reason, and watch this movie in the middle of the night for no reason.
So God, I want to do my best, please enable, help me.
And thanks Kanon, for letting me know I'm not alone. =)
I watched A Walk To Remember. And I heard Jamie, when in the hospital, say," Maybe God has bigger plans for me than I have for myself."
And normally people don't cry then, cos that's not the sad part of the movie. But I did. Cos I heard God speak.
In the movie, it was constantly stressed that love, and faith, was like the wind. You feel it, although you can't see it. Like God, I can't see Him, but I know He's real, cos I feel Him, I believe in Him like how I believe in wind.
I didn't happen to surf youtube for no reason, and watch this movie in the middle of the night for no reason.
So God, I want to do my best, please enable, help me.
And thanks Kanon, for letting me know I'm not alone. =)
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
What I want is not something that comes with a price.
I want something unconditional.
I don't need anything expensive or cost $500.
I just want a small something, that I don't have to work for, or suffer for, or prove myself worthy of.
That'll make me happy.
An example of unconditional:
" Ok, I'll let you do ____________."
Not.
" Ok, I'll let you do ____________, provided you score 4As for A Levels or prove to me you're worthy of ____________."
No. No provided. No prove to me. No show me you can. None of that.
And 4As? HAH. Joke of the century. I'll get 4As the very day As are worthless. God can't possibly give me 4As for the tiny shizload of work I've done. Although I very much would like Him to. That'll be a huge miracle.
I think I'm taking for granted the fact that I scored better than expected for PSLE and O Levels and I'm "expecting" the same for A Levels. It just hasn't sunk in that it's not that easy to do the same.
Ok, I know what I want.
I want to hear God's voice. CLEAR. Doesn't matter if it's gentle like the rustle of leaves or like the thunderstorm, although I'll be very much more afraid if it's the latter. But I want to know He's the God of the impossible, I want Him to tell me to press on and not give up, to do my best, whatever time left I have. I want Him to show me something small but incredible, that'll make me understand and know that He's always there, even when I can't see. Something like the time I walked through the downpour and not get a single drop of rain on me. But bigger.
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I asked Jonah down for the Jonah series starting this weekend.
But he's still thinking about it. I'm sad it's taking him so long to decide.
And that my wanting us to be back where we were before rapture is so difficult to make happen.
I want something unconditional.
I don't need anything expensive or cost $500.
I just want a small something, that I don't have to work for, or suffer for, or prove myself worthy of.
That'll make me happy.
An example of unconditional:
" Ok, I'll let you do ____________."
Not.
" Ok, I'll let you do ____________, provided you score 4As for A Levels or prove to me you're worthy of ____________."
No. No provided. No prove to me. No show me you can. None of that.
And 4As? HAH. Joke of the century. I'll get 4As the very day As are worthless. God can't possibly give me 4As for the tiny shizload of work I've done. Although I very much would like Him to. That'll be a huge miracle.
I think I'm taking for granted the fact that I scored better than expected for PSLE and O Levels and I'm "expecting" the same for A Levels. It just hasn't sunk in that it's not that easy to do the same.
Ok, I know what I want.
I want to hear God's voice. CLEAR. Doesn't matter if it's gentle like the rustle of leaves or like the thunderstorm, although I'll be very much more afraid if it's the latter. But I want to know He's the God of the impossible, I want Him to tell me to press on and not give up, to do my best, whatever time left I have. I want Him to show me something small but incredible, that'll make me understand and know that He's always there, even when I can't see. Something like the time I walked through the downpour and not get a single drop of rain on me. But bigger.
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I asked Jonah down for the Jonah series starting this weekend.
But he's still thinking about it. I'm sad it's taking him so long to decide.
And that my wanting us to be back where we were before rapture is so difficult to make happen.
I don't understand how I can not be stressed not studying one whole day when A Levels are less than 20 days away. I just got no motivation even though I know I'm pretty much doomed for A Levels since I haven't started geog and gp, I'll probably not get into any university and would definitely find it DAMN hard to get a job if I ever make it to university.
Tuition not counted. The half hour before tuition also not counted.
I'm staying out the whole day tomorrow, and forever, until A Levels are over.
Maybe then I can pass A Levels.
SHIZ.
And my parents are watching Russian Ballet tomorrow at the Esplanade. I saw their tickets, pretty good seats somemore. I'M TERRIBLY CONFUSED. Huh. I can't paint my parents and ballet together in the same picture. Just can't visualise. Haha.
Tuition not counted. The half hour before tuition also not counted.
I'm staying out the whole day tomorrow, and forever, until A Levels are over.
Maybe then I can pass A Levels.
SHIZ.
And my parents are watching Russian Ballet tomorrow at the Esplanade. I saw their tickets, pretty good seats somemore. I'M TERRIBLY CONFUSED. Huh. I can't paint my parents and ballet together in the same picture. Just can't visualise. Haha.
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
Slept at 5. AM.
Thought I won't be able to study much in the day. Thought I would fall asleep or something reading my A and C. BUT NO. I stayed awake. The wonders of prayer.
And maybe java chip Venti. Heh.
But I've got 2 mock papers tomorrow, gotta wake up at 730am. How to sleep early? I'll probably just toss and turn in bed until 4plus in the morning. =(
I was thinking about this small "situation" while studying at Central with Nana and the guys, and then I remembered that today's dinner was going to be spaghetti vongola vino bianco. HEH. Yeah.
Oh.
And daddy never has his italian food with plain water. ;)
Thought I won't be able to study much in the day. Thought I would fall asleep or something reading my A and C. BUT NO. I stayed awake. The wonders of prayer.
And maybe java chip Venti. Heh.
But I've got 2 mock papers tomorrow, gotta wake up at 730am. How to sleep early? I'll probably just toss and turn in bed until 4plus in the morning. =(
I was thinking about this small "situation" while studying at Central with Nana and the guys, and then I remembered that today's dinner was going to be spaghetti vongola vino bianco. HEH. Yeah.
Oh.
And daddy never has his italian food with plain water. ;)
Monday, October 13, 2008
Only a few more days to A levels and I'm no where near even completing revisions.
I can't get discouraged, I just have to study hard, try to finish revision, and leave college applications and my future into God's hands.
Oh wait, it is already in God's hands, up to Him whether I make it to uni or not. I'd like to though.
CHERYL STUDY HARDER LAH.
Tsk.
I'm getting irritated with myself.
I can't get discouraged, I just have to study hard, try to finish revision, and leave college applications and my future into God's hands.
Oh wait, it is already in God's hands, up to Him whether I make it to uni or not. I'd like to though.
CHERYL STUDY HARDER LAH.
Tsk.
I'm getting irritated with myself.
Sunday, October 12, 2008
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOASH!
I enjoyed God's presence in church today. What more can I say? It's indescribable.
And then I studied at Kovan with the guys until daddy picked me up. =) Read quite a few pages of A and C. Happy. Not good enough though.
I'm surprised and puzzled why my feet didn't hurt today, wearing my black pumps. But I'm not complaining! =)
It's 1130pm. Time to study!
Aw my little brother's 17, HAPPY BIRTHDAY! =)
His CG surprised him. Hid in his room with balloons and a silver banner (ok that's mine. ok not mine, the J2's. haha.) and when he opened his door, he got a SHOCK. FUNNY! Bryan "AHHHH"ed and dropped his bag. Haha!
I say his friends are damn nice. Abandoning him, rushing to my house via the other entrance and all. Haha! Told bryan to buy digestive biscuits at the market to stall for some time. So now I've got an extra pack of biscuits. HAHA.
Parents bought a ton of supper for everyone. And we ate straight from the ice cream cake with forks. SHIOK.
I'm tired, and I haven't studied in the past 24 hours. GUILTY.
His CG surprised him. Hid in his room with balloons and a silver banner (ok that's mine. ok not mine, the J2's. haha.) and when he opened his door, he got a SHOCK. FUNNY! Bryan "AHHHH"ed and dropped his bag. Haha!
I say his friends are damn nice. Abandoning him, rushing to my house via the other entrance and all. Haha! Told bryan to buy digestive biscuits at the market to stall for some time. So now I've got an extra pack of biscuits. HAHA.
Parents bought a ton of supper for everyone. And we ate straight from the ice cream cake with forks. SHIOK.
I'm tired, and I haven't studied in the past 24 hours. GUILTY.
Friday, October 10, 2008
Pastor Dave is the MAN man. Haha.
No substantiation.
Adam's Road made my lower lip burn. I ate a piece of Roti John with chilli sauce. JOHN ALL YOUR FAULT.
I'm kidding. Haha. Omg. Roti John. John. Roti John. John. JOHN! HAHA. Ok.
Island Cremery. Nothing new.
I forgot to bring my ipod. The journey home was tough therefore.
Two things made me almost want to cry. Thankfully my reactions are retarded, by the time I really wanted to cry, all I felt was this big sad feeling.
1. The dog. Scared the S*** out of me.
2. John Tan you, bluff me. Rargh.
I'm losing this sense of security I've always had when I'm around them. Something's not right.
Ok now this is making me cry. Haha.
No substantiation.
Adam's Road made my lower lip burn. I ate a piece of Roti John with chilli sauce. JOHN ALL YOUR FAULT.
I'm kidding. Haha. Omg. Roti John. John. Roti John. John. JOHN! HAHA. Ok.
Island Cremery. Nothing new.
I forgot to bring my ipod. The journey home was tough therefore.
Two things made me almost want to cry. Thankfully my reactions are retarded, by the time I really wanted to cry, all I felt was this big sad feeling.
1. The dog. Scared the S*** out of me.
2. John Tan you, bluff me. Rargh.
I'm losing this sense of security I've always had when I'm around them. Something's not right.
Ok now this is making me cry. Haha.
Thursday, October 09, 2008
Cheryl's really worn out today.
Had 3 hours of sleep, woke up at 6am to go to school.
Slept through all the A Level talk and I stoned through the speeches.
The video presentation made by the teachers and the ones made by the individual classes were quite entertaining. I found myself laughing like mad. Haha.
Our class video wasn't played. But the school knew about it since after the end of the student's video presentation, Diana asked in a really REALLY audible-to-the-whole-CC voice, "Eh, what about zero seven eih oh nine?"The class didn't cheer out loud, though we were laughing. But I bet secretly in our class' hearts we were all very happy and proud she did that, made a stand and made it know we were not to be simply put aside. =) Diana Chan seriously ROCKS. =D
This year's grad day wasn't one filled with tears, it wasn't one of sorrow. Instead, everyone was really happy and the whole J2 cohort celebrated with buffet in the hall and A LOT of camming.
Happy day, unfortunately my eyebags were the same size as my eyes, which made smiling and opening my eyes hard to do at the same time. I look shagged in every of the pictures.
Nevertheless I still tried to take as many good pictures as possible.
I'm happy cos of one particular reason. Something happened in school today.
I'm also happy cos Miss K commented that I "really do have a career in acting" after watching Zhuann's art coursework and HepatitisA9. YAY. =) Coming from a very erm critical teacher... =D Exciting.
A9 got $170 for scoring dang well for the Napfa Challenge this year.
We to it to Cathay for Burn After Reading and Aston's. Well half the class did. Heh. Burn After Reading was WOW HUH. Haha.
It was the first time in the history of A9's book of travelling to another place (HAHA) that we didn't stop moving halfway. Frickin' serious. We were on a mission man. We didn't dilly dally, stop to smell the roses, ah look omg its so cute. None. Thank God for 142, made our journey shorter. Quicker.
Met Aud at the MRT station, she found out through me, something that shook her inside out. She came back with me to find evidence on the internet and eventually I think she was slightly crushed.
Aww I had no idea how to help her, since I couldn't feel her pain.
Life.
Went to town for dinner, I'm happy cos the foie gras sauce never changes. It always tastes the same. =) How many years already my family patronises the restaurant (we don't go there very often please. Only my daddy goes to the bar EVERY FRIDAY) and every time I go, I'll order foie gras for appetizer and it ALWAYS TASTE THE SAME. Served with different stuff every time (ok the last time I went it was the same), but the foie gras ALWAYS TASTE THE SAME. Love it. Serious. LOVE the familiarity. I can know what to expect everytime I go.
Had 3 hours of sleep, woke up at 6am to go to school.
Slept through all the A Level talk and I stoned through the speeches.
The video presentation made by the teachers and the ones made by the individual classes were quite entertaining. I found myself laughing like mad. Haha.
Our class video wasn't played. But the school knew about it since after the end of the student's video presentation, Diana asked in a really REALLY audible-to-the-whole-CC voice, "Eh, what about zero seven eih oh nine?"The class didn't cheer out loud, though we were laughing. But I bet secretly in our class' hearts we were all very happy and proud she did that, made a stand and made it know we were not to be simply put aside. =) Diana Chan seriously ROCKS. =D
This year's grad day wasn't one filled with tears, it wasn't one of sorrow. Instead, everyone was really happy and the whole J2 cohort celebrated with buffet in the hall and A LOT of camming.
Happy day, unfortunately my eyebags were the same size as my eyes, which made smiling and opening my eyes hard to do at the same time. I look shagged in every of the pictures.
Nevertheless I still tried to take as many good pictures as possible.
I'm happy cos of one particular reason. Something happened in school today.
I'm also happy cos Miss K commented that I "really do have a career in acting" after watching Zhuann's art coursework and HepatitisA9. YAY. =) Coming from a very erm critical teacher... =D Exciting.
A9 got $170 for scoring dang well for the Napfa Challenge this year.
We to it to Cathay for Burn After Reading and Aston's. Well half the class did. Heh. Burn After Reading was WOW HUH. Haha.
It was the first time in the history of A9's book of travelling to another place (HAHA) that we didn't stop moving halfway. Frickin' serious. We were on a mission man. We didn't dilly dally, stop to smell the roses, ah look omg its so cute. None. Thank God for 142, made our journey shorter. Quicker.
Met Aud at the MRT station, she found out through me, something that shook her inside out. She came back with me to find evidence on the internet and eventually I think she was slightly crushed.
Aww I had no idea how to help her, since I couldn't feel her pain.
Life.
Went to town for dinner, I'm happy cos the foie gras sauce never changes. It always tastes the same. =) How many years already my family patronises the restaurant (we don't go there very often please. Only my daddy goes to the bar EVERY FRIDAY) and every time I go, I'll order foie gras for appetizer and it ALWAYS TASTE THE SAME. Served with different stuff every time (ok the last time I went it was the same), but the foie gras ALWAYS TASTE THE SAME. Love it. Serious. LOVE the familiarity. I can know what to expect everytime I go.
Wednesday, October 08, 2008
I don't like how our class video is not going to be played tomorrow at the graduation assembly because the committee thinks it doesn't fit the tone. Things like that make me feel rebellious.
You know how in American schools the kids pull stunts on graduation day? I feel like doing something, but I don't know what and I don't know how.
Our class video will be up on youtube nevertheless. We'll get more hits than the number of people at the grad ceremony. HAH.
Ok I think big. But thinking big is gooooood. =)
You know how in American schools the kids pull stunts on graduation day? I feel like doing something, but I don't know what and I don't know how.
Our class video will be up on youtube nevertheless. We'll get more hits than the number of people at the grad ceremony. HAH.
Ok I think big. But thinking big is gooooood. =)
Tuesday, October 07, 2008
OMT I know how they feel about each other.
My two friends.
My lips are sealed though. I can't say.
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What must I do to make my mum go back to normal.
You know this cold shoulder (sortof la) thing she does, I hate it.
Simply because I don't want to grow up and become, behave like that next time.
I don't like it, I'm sure my children won't, I don't want to treat my children like that. But parents are influences and I learn from my parent's actions.
Someone tell my mum.
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It's 12:56am. I just tried to do a double pirouette.
I did it.
But my specs fell off too.
TIME TO STUDY.
My two friends.
My lips are sealed though. I can't say.
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What must I do to make my mum go back to normal.
You know this cold shoulder (sortof la) thing she does, I hate it.
Simply because I don't want to grow up and become, behave like that next time.
I don't like it, I'm sure my children won't, I don't want to treat my children like that. But parents are influences and I learn from my parent's actions.
Someone tell my mum.
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It's 12:56am. I just tried to do a double pirouette.
I did it.
But my specs fell off too.
TIME TO STUDY.
I just printed my calendar for Oct Nov Dec.
25 more days to A LEVELS. I'm still not started. Cheryl is seriously SCREWED.
I'm also wondering.
What happened 10 months before October? Why are there so many birthday babies?
Haha. Every week in Oct, the average number of birthdays is 2.4.
1.6 for Nov and 2.0 for Dec.
So why? CNY? Christmas? New year?
People are happier? HAHA.
25 more days to A LEVELS. I'm still not started. Cheryl is seriously SCREWED.
I'm also wondering.
What happened 10 months before October? Why are there so many birthday babies?
Haha. Every week in Oct, the average number of birthdays is 2.4.
1.6 for Nov and 2.0 for Dec.
So why? CNY? Christmas? New year?
People are happier? HAHA.
Monday, October 06, 2008
Taken damn long ago in the library with Sybs and Cons. We were supposed to be studying. But Sybs had her awesome cam phone so... HAHA.
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Side note: I'm on youtube. Produced by zhuann.
HAHA. It's damn funny, I keep laughing at myself and my laoyapok acting.
Everytime I look at a work that has me, I always see room for improvement. No difference for this one, I imagine how much better it would look like if I gave a thisthisthis kind of expression. And I wish I did what I imagined. But this is so much better than when I did my first film. That was really REALLY bad. This clip is only a minute or so though, so maybe it's not that good a gauge.
For your entertainment,
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c4rmDSH1CPo
Did I mention zhuann is a genius?
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Side note: I'm on youtube. Produced by zhuann.
HAHA. It's damn funny, I keep laughing at myself and my laoyapok acting.
Everytime I look at a work that has me, I always see room for improvement. No difference for this one, I imagine how much better it would look like if I gave a thisthisthis kind of expression. And I wish I did what I imagined. But this is so much better than when I did my first film. That was really REALLY bad. This clip is only a minute or so though, so maybe it's not that good a gauge.
For your entertainment,
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c4rmDSH1CPo
Did I mention zhuann is a genius?
I am pissed at myself.
Because I thought mummy showed a sudden change in her character, suddenly to encourage me to work harder for A levels.
For a while I felt cheated. Damn it, cheated.
Mummy's still the same afterall.
And it's not her fault, it's mine. Haha. Shiz I suck. Mum's already 40-something, how can her character suddenly change?
Because I thought mummy showed a sudden change in her character, suddenly to encourage me to work harder for A levels.
For a while I felt cheated. Damn it, cheated.
Mummy's still the same afterall.
And it's not her fault, it's mine. Haha. Shiz I suck. Mum's already 40-something, how can her character suddenly change?
There was once a boy born to an average family. This boy was loved and protected by his parents so much that they didn't let him get injured or even fall down. Even as the boy grew up, his parents watched over him and took care of him so that he would not be in danger.
This boy grew to be a man of 30. He was successful in his career and he was always invited to speak to audiences.
One day, this man was walking up stage when he tripped over his shoelaces and fell. And because it was the first time he fell, he cried.
I feel like that man in his thirties.
Over protected that when something very minor happens, because it never happened to me, I have no idea what to make of it, all I can do is cry.
I've not cried in so long, it feels so painful but so good at the same time. I felt like a little girl again. I felt like I had to cry to God and tell Him everything on my mind. I could only cry to God. I felt like I could only rely on God.
Its 4 am and I still can't sleep, I had to write something.
It's really stupid really, cos in the first place everything was a miscommunication.
My heart hurts really bad. Real real bad I literally can't breathe too deep.
This boy grew to be a man of 30. He was successful in his career and he was always invited to speak to audiences.
One day, this man was walking up stage when he tripped over his shoelaces and fell. And because it was the first time he fell, he cried.
I feel like that man in his thirties.
Over protected that when something very minor happens, because it never happened to me, I have no idea what to make of it, all I can do is cry.
I've not cried in so long, it feels so painful but so good at the same time. I felt like a little girl again. I felt like I had to cry to God and tell Him everything on my mind. I could only cry to God. I felt like I could only rely on God.
Its 4 am and I still can't sleep, I had to write something.
It's really stupid really, cos in the first place everything was a miscommunication.
My heart hurts really bad. Real real bad I literally can't breathe too deep.
Sunday, October 05, 2008
I went to church not ready to worship, not knowing what to expect.
I felt sorry for so many things, I felt like crap for so many different reasons.
But God works in miraculous ways, He touched me today and made me feel like crying.
And God, you really are my best friend, I thank You.
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Chawanmushi. But Yami with wheatgerm. Wheatgerm is seriously the bomb.
Coffee ice cream with chestnuts. Not water chestnuts but those cooked with coffeebeans. Awesome stuff together, credits to me please thanks. HAHA.
The guys came over. Studied a bit. They slept more than studied. Haha.
Then we ate out of the Yami tub. Spam wheatgerm. NICE.
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Thanks Jo for that call, LOVES.
I felt sorry for so many things, I felt like crap for so many different reasons.
But God works in miraculous ways, He touched me today and made me feel like crying.
And God, you really are my best friend, I thank You.
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Chawanmushi. But Yami with wheatgerm. Wheatgerm is seriously the bomb.
Coffee ice cream with chestnuts. Not water chestnuts but those cooked with coffeebeans. Awesome stuff together, credits to me please thanks. HAHA.
The guys came over. Studied a bit. They slept more than studied. Haha.
Then we ate out of the Yami tub. Spam wheatgerm. NICE.
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Thanks Jo for that call, LOVES.
How to describe what I felt today.
Tired: Had to drag myself up for some studying.
Disappointed: Sakae Sushi.
Cool: 21.
Uncool: Balloons. GIANT helium ones. TWO.
I tell you it's the first time the whole world looked at me. I wasn't invincible.
And I felt what it could be like as a superstar. But one difference as a star, people ask you for autographs and pictures. With the balloons, people shun. I had a metre radius in the MRT. Actually, that's pretty cool, no need to squeeze and all. =) But it felt SO EMBARRASSING the whole time, I was ready to be an ostrich. I pretended it was PERFECTLY normal to be seen with helium balloons twice my size. That made me feel better.
Happy, relieved: Stopped at Eunos and Jo picked me up in a cab.
At T3, we were laughing over ourselves. SUPERB balloon handling skills. NOT.
Beeth was laughing at us too, from a distance, as she saw us step out of the elevator, trying to untangle the balloons.
RJ was also at the food court with her parents.
Jo and I not surprisingly, went to get last minute birthday cakes from tcc.
Cake, pictures, presents, balloons. Typical stuff, but the company made everything more special, more worth remembering, (not that celebrating birthdays with other people are not worth remembering..)
PICTURES GALORE. Up on facebook, I'll put some up here though.
Sending RJ was not as painful as the first time she left. After that, we flew over to T1 for dinner.
The way back home was littered with more picture taking. DUH. Train ride back takes at least 15 minutes. Took cab from Paya Lebar.
Kelvin and Zidian's staying over, means that there is a greater percentage I'll be able to wake up for church. In any case they choose to let me sleep in, I got back up wake up call. HAHA. Never fails.
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I realise that it's cos I freeze, that's why I don't do anything.
My mind stops functioning and I would be at a loss.
The aftershocks were't as bad this time, I'm starting to be more immune to it.
Jo, if you don't understand, you know there is another alternative for you to read my mind.. All my thoughts are secret. Well, most.
Tired: Had to drag myself up for some studying.
Disappointed: Sakae Sushi.
Cool: 21.
Uncool: Balloons. GIANT helium ones. TWO.
I tell you it's the first time the whole world looked at me. I wasn't invincible.
And I felt what it could be like as a superstar. But one difference as a star, people ask you for autographs and pictures. With the balloons, people shun. I had a metre radius in the MRT. Actually, that's pretty cool, no need to squeeze and all. =) But it felt SO EMBARRASSING the whole time, I was ready to be an ostrich. I pretended it was PERFECTLY normal to be seen with helium balloons twice my size. That made me feel better.
Happy, relieved: Stopped at Eunos and Jo picked me up in a cab.
At T3, we were laughing over ourselves. SUPERB balloon handling skills. NOT.
Beeth was laughing at us too, from a distance, as she saw us step out of the elevator, trying to untangle the balloons.
RJ was also at the food court with her parents.
Jo and I not surprisingly, went to get last minute birthday cakes from tcc.
Cake, pictures, presents, balloons. Typical stuff, but the company made everything more special, more worth remembering, (not that celebrating birthdays with other people are not worth remembering..)
PICTURES GALORE. Up on facebook, I'll put some up here though.
Sending RJ was not as painful as the first time she left. After that, we flew over to T1 for dinner.
The way back home was littered with more picture taking. DUH. Train ride back takes at least 15 minutes. Took cab from Paya Lebar.
Kelvin and Zidian's staying over, means that there is a greater percentage I'll be able to wake up for church. In any case they choose to let me sleep in, I got back up wake up call. HAHA. Never fails.
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I realise that it's cos I freeze, that's why I don't do anything.
My mind stops functioning and I would be at a loss.
The aftershocks were't as bad this time, I'm starting to be more immune to it.
Jo, if you don't understand, you know there is another alternative for you to read my mind.. All my thoughts are secret. Well, most.
Friday, October 03, 2008
Wow my mum just tried to chase James and Amiel out. Right in their faces. For a guy reason that I've slowly learnt to understand that my mum doesn't like.
Although I know why she does that, I think it's not right.
I'm in between the warfare. With my mum and her mahjong on my left near the windows, me at the coffee table and them in bryan's room.
Ok now they're staying.
Cool friday night. My life's like a movie.
Although I know why she does that, I think it's not right.
I'm in between the warfare. With my mum and her mahjong on my left near the windows, me at the coffee table and them in bryan's room.
Ok now they're staying.
Cool friday night. My life's like a movie.
Daddy loves me enough to drive me to the market and back and then walk to the mrt station. (He's going to where he always does on Friday nights, cannot drive)
And Mummy bought me this HUGE, black croc leather case of Estee Lauder make up, with everything from eyes to lashes to lips to cheek... And make up remover.. And another small black croc leather bag with all the brushes. She said it was to encourage me.
Wow.
I better study HARD.
And Mummy bought me this HUGE, black croc leather case of Estee Lauder make up, with everything from eyes to lashes to lips to cheek... And make up remover.. And another small black croc leather bag with all the brushes. She said it was to encourage me.
Wow.
I better study HARD.
Thursday, October 02, 2008
Writing this post is going to take a while, I gotta shuffle back and forth from the computer.
Basically Jo met me at my place, we went to develop VERY EXPENSIVE pictures (wow I didn't know it cost so much). We looked for decorative stuff, went to her house and started on the 3 oct babies' presents. Worked from evening about 8 to 2 in the morning. By that time our creative juice boxes were DRY. But Cheryl Hoe saves the day! Due to her foresightedness she had already bought replenishing supplies!
But this was taken at 1 plus. We didn't have much time to eat, see!
Can't upload the rest till Saturday, otherwise I'll be spoiling surprises.
Anyway, yesterday all I did for Oct 1 was finish Josh's present, help do his card together with Eliel Elisha Daryl. At Josh's house, the J2's ate, slacked and I borrowed one of Candice's otfits. She brought 3 WHOLE SETS for me to choose! Oh my that's DAMN sweet! Jeanne also, brought 4 hair bands for me to try. LOVES YOUS! =D
Taxi-ed to Suntec, everyone was done eating, so I changed to Candice's outfit and we proceeded to Cam whore. Seriously. The words cam whore should not be taken lightly.
Altogether a whooping 245 pictures from my camera, there's still Deb's, Rachel's, Ian's, Chey's.... I'm only uploading half. The other half is a mere repeat. More slightly varying copies of what I'll upload. Haha! That's how we do it, one pose take 10 times.
Check out facebook, but please be reminded that I was POSING for all the pictures, all suggestive looking ones are not a reflection of my true self! HAHA. I was almost shocked at myself. The expressions I gave for some made me feel like I should run into a hard wall. Heh.
Basically Jo met me at my place, we went to develop VERY EXPENSIVE pictures (wow I didn't know it cost so much). We looked for decorative stuff, went to her house and started on the 3 oct babies' presents. Worked from evening about 8 to 2 in the morning. By that time our creative juice boxes were DRY. But Cheryl Hoe saves the day! Due to her foresightedness she had already bought replenishing supplies!
But this was taken at 1 plus. We didn't have much time to eat, see!
Can't upload the rest till Saturday, otherwise I'll be spoiling surprises.
Anyway, yesterday all I did for Oct 1 was finish Josh's present, help do his card together with Eliel Elisha Daryl. At Josh's house, the J2's ate, slacked and I borrowed one of Candice's otfits. She brought 3 WHOLE SETS for me to choose! Oh my that's DAMN sweet! Jeanne also, brought 4 hair bands for me to try. LOVES YOUS! =D
Taxi-ed to Suntec, everyone was done eating, so I changed to Candice's outfit and we proceeded to Cam whore. Seriously. The words cam whore should not be taken lightly.
Altogether a whooping 245 pictures from my camera, there's still Deb's, Rachel's, Ian's, Chey's.... I'm only uploading half. The other half is a mere repeat. More slightly varying copies of what I'll upload. Haha! That's how we do it, one pose take 10 times.
Check out facebook, but please be reminded that I was POSING for all the pictures, all suggestive looking ones are not a reflection of my true self! HAHA. I was almost shocked at myself. The expressions I gave for some made me feel like I should run into a hard wall. Heh.
Wednesday, October 01, 2008
OH I get it now.
Now don't make me start. I don't like the emo-elmo feeling.
I'll pretend I didn't know. I'll pretend I didn't even realised.
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I walked down Mt Cherry to pass Sybs her GC and on the way this construction worker sitting at the back of a lorry (which drove past duh) kept looking at me and smiling in the most peverted way you can imagine. WHAT the toots. I ignored. No actually I frowned and gave quite a disgusted look.
At the MRT station, I was walking up and down along the lines to guide the blind, yeah those lines that pop out, when I heard a very loud," F*** YOU LAH!" I turned and saw the lady at the BUZZ shop right in front of the control station screaming at this indian man who was already walking away from her shop. She kept going, " F*** YOU LAH YOU, F*** LAH..."
And then the man turned towards her and shouted," C***C***B**."
EVERYONE at the station were looking their way.
The lady lashed at him with another Fs before slamming the newspapers which were in front of her in anger before retreating back into her lil shop.
WOW. Drama early in the day.
But now I'm back in the comfort of my room, I gotta finish Josh's present, do his card, find gossip girl prep looking clothes and get ready to go.
First to Josh's house, celebrate Josh's birthday, then to town, change and meet my class, chill a bit, celebrate Becca's birthday, and then change back to what I wore to Josh's house, buy the 3 giant balloons from PS, go to Settler's wherever that is, and meet my dear sixinaclique with a few more other people RJ invited and celebrate the Oct babies birthday, Aud Beeth and RJ.
It's gonna be a long day.
Now. Prep clothes...
Now don't make me start. I don't like the emo-elmo feeling.
I'll pretend I didn't know. I'll pretend I didn't even realised.
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I walked down Mt Cherry to pass Sybs her GC and on the way this construction worker sitting at the back of a lorry (which drove past duh) kept looking at me and smiling in the most peverted way you can imagine. WHAT the toots. I ignored. No actually I frowned and gave quite a disgusted look.
At the MRT station, I was walking up and down along the lines to guide the blind, yeah those lines that pop out, when I heard a very loud," F*** YOU LAH!" I turned and saw the lady at the BUZZ shop right in front of the control station screaming at this indian man who was already walking away from her shop. She kept going, " F*** YOU LAH YOU, F*** LAH..."
And then the man turned towards her and shouted," C***C***B**."
EVERYONE at the station were looking their way.
The lady lashed at him with another Fs before slamming the newspapers which were in front of her in anger before retreating back into her lil shop.
WOW. Drama early in the day.
But now I'm back in the comfort of my room, I gotta finish Josh's present, do his card, find gossip girl prep looking clothes and get ready to go.
First to Josh's house, celebrate Josh's birthday, then to town, change and meet my class, chill a bit, celebrate Becca's birthday, and then change back to what I wore to Josh's house, buy the 3 giant balloons from PS, go to Settler's wherever that is, and meet my dear sixinaclique with a few more other people RJ invited and celebrate the Oct babies birthday, Aud Beeth and RJ.
It's gonna be a long day.
Now. Prep clothes...