leader's retreat went well. the weather was perfect. not too much sun, no rain.

woke up so early to take a BUS to east coast. yes people, I AM A CHANGED PERSON. haha. come on, tell me, that I AM A CHANGED PERSON. until the taxi fares decrease. heh.

met josh on the bus after standing for so long. doh i am blind at times. haha.

luckily for me, i had josh with me, otherwise, taking instructions from dustbin over the phone to get to ecp would have driven me nuts and utterly confused. haha.

we had a short thought from pastor dave, had personal reflections, small group discussion and the vision for 2008, told to us by the comm.

i sat on the sand facing the sea and when one of the questions asked me about how my prayer life is like, i took all exanples from the sea. haha.

later we walked more than half an hour to the hawker centre. i shared popiah with amy jie.

then at night we were to lhk by the chartered bus. the journey there was depressing. it reminded me about how brillant my batch's people are. rjc, vjc, hci and all. and i? i am not taking and h3s, not doing science subjects and i dont get As as much.

worshipping later was harder than usual and i was extremely distracted by all the thoughts. haha. emo emo. thanksgiving and more emo. i had better try harder.

sian. i typed so much about the past few days and i forgot to save it. so now i have to RETYPE. argh.

basically i said that taiwan's shopping i really cool. lots of stuff to see and buy but very little time to actually do so. haha!

i bought lots of stuff. nice!

took many pictures too but only a few ended up nice.

bryan and i rushed from the airport after touching down back in singapore to church. we ran through rehearsals for the next day's outreach.

we had 4 salvations! =) so cool! thank God for being God. He rocks. seriously. =)

doing worship was fun cos jeanne and nana sang too. we harmonized some of the songs. i like! =)

the drama was very well done. i thought kris and vinna did a very good job. but i apologise for not being on time for any practice! heh. so sorry. =p

this year's drama was different. we didnt do a comedy. we didnt do a happy play. we did a slightly disturbing piece. very thinking one. i think this drama challenged the audience to think about how they could relate to the individuals and all. i like. the emsemble worked like one, i think we blew their minds!

on sunday we did the same thing. but with mikes. darn it i hate mikes. they spoil the flow of the drama and take away the focus. but the overflow. argh. all's still good, many of the adults came up to say that the drama was excellent. and when they said that, a felt a sense of seriousness. not just the "oh well done it was great, it was funny i enjoyed it!". so that probably means that our drama was clear enough and made sense. =)

christmas eve was yesterday. i did nothing except do christmas cards. almost 19 hours straight of cutting, gluing and writing. elisha, jeremy, malcolm, third bro, clement and matt stayed over. they went to swim at 3 in the morning and i made supper for them which they consumed at 4am. swedish meatballs and cheese sausages. clement drank the extra sauce. haha! i hope supper was good! guys finish their food most of the time, so its hard to tell if it was good or not. haha.

all of them finished the ice wine in the cellar and after that when they attempted to get some rest, i could hear a lot of gaying, screaming and beatboxing from the room they were in. haha. the influences of alcohol. tsk. sounded like they had lots of fun though, so i guess it was ok. afterall, none had any side effects. =)

i slept at 7 in the morning when daddy woke up. and then at 9 i rushed to get ready for church. we got there in time but the church was packed already so we sat in the first overflow. jeanne and nana saved a space for me. =) so nice. haha. the songs we sang were almost similar to the ones we sang for outreach. haha. i was half expecting the high hats to crash to hark the herald angels sing ( was it the high hats?) after we sang angels we have heard on high. haha.

i was really tired but somehow i didnt sleep through the sermon. i really listened to everything uncle william said. which i thought was amazing.

then after the service, everyone scrambled to find each other and give out cards and stuff. there was one point in time when the girls found ourselves leaning on the railings facing the guys on the other side of the building, doing exactly the same thing, in our direction. it was pretty hilarious haha. time wasting is good time spent. =p

gracie and i had lunch with the guys before she left to do other stuff and the rest of us with uncle shukun went to vivo to shop. we went to shop cos the guys wanted to CAN YOU BELIEVE IT! haha. but shopping makes me happy so i didnt disagree to the suggestion. =)

being the only girl didnt feel so bad today, cos the guys seeked my opinion on stuff they wanted to buy. feeling needed feels good. whatever that means. haha. at the end of the day, wynnie got 2 tops, eliel got his pants and we all were tired from walking so much.

my gosh i say my j1 guys have got good fashion sense. well most of them. heh.

shopping wasnt tiring cos most of the time i didnt think of where to go next. the guys went to all my favourite brands like pull and bear, zara, topshop and more. =)

today, i took the bus home! haha! cos the trains were jammed. it as fun, riding with daryl, uncle shuks and john. brotherhood yo! haha.

talked a lot, john slept quite a bit and i saw stuff i dont see when i take taxis. it took about an hour and more to get home but aiy, i'm boycotting taxis and hopefully by early next year they'll decrease prices. haha. then i can cab more often again. haha.

i put some stuff down at home before leaving the house again to go to tmcc for dinner. took a bathe before the courses came haha. bryan did the same.

i think everyone is tired from all the staying up and stuff.

i still have one more stayover at fensie jie's house. its almost like an annual thing now. haha. every new year's eve tonew year's day. but i like. =)

so much has happened since i gotback from taiwan.

basically, taiwan's shopping rocks. seriously, there is so much so see and so much you want. yet there is so little time! i bought a lot on this trip i literally made a hole in daddy's pocket. haha! no idea how he did it. now when he puts coins in his pocket, they fall out and then daddy tells me he forgot again about that hole. haha!

only kidding ok! that hole was discovered before the trip already. =)

my family travelled the whole of taiwan except alishan and i guess a few other smaller places. but other than that, i can say i've been there done that. =) we took pictures like mad everytime we stopped at a sightseeing destination. but after looking through all of them, i only liked a few nice ones. the rest didnt make me look good. =p

i'm in taiwan now. its pretty cool but most of the stuff is about the same price as singapore! so disappointing! nevertheless, i'm gonna shop like mad!

i already bought a bag for myself and some other smaller stuff i think is cute and one wynnie said was misleading. one day i'll bring it to church and then yall will know why! =)

I'm going with the flow, and talking about camp. Yeah, everyone is probably doing the same thing, or have done so already.

But I'll start from 3 days before camp, cos that when I left the house for class chalet which was immediately before camp.


5 dec.


After drama prac, I went home and got stayover stuff. It was raining so I took a cab down to downtown east. It was the peak hour and I took about half an hour to reach. The cab fare was about 20 bucks. My pocket half died.


The class went to get the food Serene ordered for the bbq so I waited outside the room for like 15 minutes, carrying my heavy overnight bag. I think the backache I had for the next few days was triggered by this.


Anyway, we barbequed in the rain. I held up the umbrella over the grill whilst Serene Rachel Deborah and Gussie got the fire going. Sybs and Becca were in the room doing security duty, making sure no one dares to enter our room from the back and steal our stuff. =)


More classmates came later and we ate till we were all bloated. There was still a lot left over so we gave it all to our neighbour. We ordered enough for the class but half pangseh-ed last minute, so yeah.


Saw Mella. With his class. Haha. His room was just 2 doors down. Mella later complained at camp that my room was still damn noisy at 4 am. =p Opps.


After the bbq, some of us went clubbing whilst the rest stayed in the room and watched Sister Act 2. Then at 4 when we were all back in the room, we watched the longest yard and talked till we fell asleep.


Pris Gussie and I woke up at like 7 to cab to different places. We shared one cab though. Pris dropped off at the MRT station, Gussie went to soccer training at Boon Keng and I went for drama prac.


My heartpains returned halfway into drama prac, so I left for home.


Then later I returned to downtown east and had dinner with the class. Nicholas came over and we all went crazy watching the SEA games opening ceremony in Thailand. The thai dances were so national-day-like but more hilarious. And the titles of the dances were damn corny too. We laughed at all the people we thought were possible trannies too. Oh dear. =p


Slowly we all drifted off to sleep one by one. But then in the middle of the night, figtree who was sleeping beside me flipped the pillow I was sharing with Gussie so then I woke up. Apparently Gussie was snoring. HAHA. And then Nicolas woke up too and said something that made most of us laugh.


In the morning, people asked me how I managed to sleep beside Gussie and not not sleep. Frankly I have no idea too. Haha. We packed up, checked out and then had breakfast at BK. Then I left at 11 for camp. Cabbing to Bueno Vista costed 20 bucks plus again. I thought it would be cheap! =( Only when I reached then people told me both places were at opposite ends of Singapore. =p I thought they were around the same place. HAHA. Oh well.


This is the first camp that daddy and nicole didnt go for. And the first camp daddy didn't carry my bag up to the bunk for me. But bryan got someone else to do it I guess. Since my camp bag which I packed for him to bring before I left for chalet was already in the bunk. Heh.


This was also the first camp in which I had to serve in worship. So it meant that I couldnt always respond like the way I did during all the response times. But serving was cool though. =)


The camp speaker was Ps Carl Butler from NewZealand. What he talked about during the 6 sermons we had all really spoke to me and was really perfect timing for me to hear it. Like the talents, the equipments, the intimacy. Ask me about them if you want to know more cos there is really a lot to talk about. =) I'll be glad to share. It's very interesting really.


The camp was very different from all the other camps I have been to. Instead of getting so on fire for a short time, I think the camp prepared us to be high for God for a long long time. Which is much better I feel.


The day programmes were alright, I thought everything was more relaxed and not so packed. Which was good. But then the nights to me were horrible. Every night I wanted to go home but every night it was too late for mummy and daddy to pick me up. Every night I cried and had to keep it down so that the whole bunk didn't wake up. For once in my life I felt alone around church mates.

Jeanne and I agreed that now I don't seem to be as close to the J1s anymore. I can be standing right next to any one of them but I can feel so out of place. But there is no one else but me to blame.

During worships, I pray and ask God to help me focus on Him only, and not bother about such trivial matters.

But afterwards, I see that they have so much fun with each other, they have stuff to talk about and internal jokes to laugh about. Then somehow I feel like I'm not needed. And then I have to pray for strength and courage to last the night.

I say I'm fine, but really, you gotta look closer.