so my heart hurt so bad in school today i was crying like mad.

daddy called me and i told him i was alright.

he told me to go see my teacher but i didnt.

then i could hardly contain myself so i said bye quickly.

whole day affair. not funny. i thought i was gonna die soon when in the afternoon during dance rehearsal i was all energetic. you know, the life before death thing, when people suddenly get bursts of energy before they die. haha.

nah but i'm still here. so yeah..

the first run through was horrible!! my gosh. my sweater top slipped cos i forgot to pin it down. so it looks like i tied one aroundm waist after a while.

then when it came to the w part. i stripped it off and flung it backstage. haha!

becca said she could imagine when i told her about it. woah!!!

i used about 9 safety pins for the second run through. and this run through was so much better. haha.

i think the jumping on stage thing is dm cool. =)

went home in a bad mood though. cos i lost my pair of fbts. so i had to go home in full uniform. so irritating.

i hope my heart pains stop soon. its getting scary. and i want to dance.

I have so much to catch up on. I wonder what I have been doing the past term and term 2.

Time flies so quickly, I'm breathless.

I've got WR, EoM and I&R.

I've got GEOG, LIT, ECONS essays and other assignments overdue. Let's not talk about revising for promos now.

I've got a frickin chinese workbook to complete by tomorrow.
SCREW THE CHINESE. Hate it so much. People keep telling me how I can't speak it. I cant even read and understand I know thank you.

I want to go to Melbourne for dance. I'm very tempted to curse and swear cos my daddy doesnt think he'll let me go.

My stupid finger is being a pain.

My heart's not right.

I need to fix so many things suddenly I dont know where to start.

Maybe I can look forward to social night. Shopping with whatever existant money in my bank account and meeting daddy's army mates.

So now. Looks like I gotta chiong I&R.

And everything else.

I need God. I want God. I'm almost desparate.

Today I twisted my finger. But only when I went home then did it look swollen and purple. See I told you my reactions were retarded.

Went to the doctor's to get it diagnosed. She gave me stuff to put on and stuff to eat, butI still dont know what happened to it. HAHA.

Daddy told the doctor about my heart problem and she did an ECG on me. It was scary. I felt like a science experiment with all the electrodes and wires and machines and beepings and readings and stuff.

The doctor said I shouldn't take PE or do anything vigorous. But Teacher's day is on friday and the dance is frickin' fast and VIGOROUS. Heck, no-one needs to know. (refering to higher authorities)

Ok, my heart is feeling pain now again. Dm it.

Alright. So now it seems like we have less than 2 weeks to finish Keisha's dance. Now we have to perform for teacher's day. My gosh, we're so not ready! =(

It's about a month or so (slightly more but I shall deceive myself and start panicking so that my revision gets done soon) to promos. SO EXCITING. Haha.

Going to the Service Term ball thing with daddy. Yayes! I remember the officer talk thing at SA weeks ago (the one that I slept through most of the talk) and he said that it was an honour and previlage for girls to go. And I distinctly remembered that I told myself, " I don't care, someone better take me, even if it's Bryan."

Bryan better make it to OCS and take me. So that I can go twice. HAHA.

I shall NOW start to mug. Mugging now means nearer the date, I won't be so stressed.

SA OPEN HOUSE
10 OCTOBER
COME SEE KEISHA'S DANCE.
=)

Gotta think of what to wear for teacher's day now. Aiy.

Haven't blogged in a while. So I shall be quick and brief about the recent stuff. Here goes.

1. Doing Open House performance on the 10th OCTOBER. We're ding Keisha's dance (Hiphop). My gosh. Dm cool.

2. Lugged half my house to church to do worship prac and worship. My team on saturday was like a mixed team. Synthersizerer swopped, guitarist swopped. NO VOCALISTS. So Dustbin sang for me. Haha. I forgot to pray maybe. That's way I felt super nervous all of a sudden and I kept stumbling on what I wanted to say which I told my team during devotion with ease. What the toots. But I don't mind being a fool for God.

3. Lugged half my house minus my lunch which was already eaten to school's macs to do the lit presentation. Unfruitful day. We were distracted by Figtree's vaio and a quarter of my house- my laptop.

4. Gussie keeps leaving stuff behind which is comical. He left his housekeys, ipod, money, jacket behind before, not all at the same time duh haha. I say next is his cellphone. HAHA.

5. Jonah came to study. I finished my lit reading.

6. Slept at 5 in the morning. Finished lit assignment.

7. Woke up at 3pm and went to Joanne's for BBQ.

8. Lost 2-2 to Jeremy in table tennis. RARGH.

9.J1 guys are easily amused by smashes. They WOW everytime either one of us smash.

10. I successfully blocked one dm powerful smash. WHEEE. Miss playing really.

11. Again, the guys hid my stuff. My phone went missing after taking group shots.

12. Joanne said she would call my phone and see who takes my phone out of his bag or pocket. I said no need cos one of them will willingly return it after a while. Haha.

13. Wynnie gave it back cos Gussie msged. HAHA.

14. I keep eating chocolates in school. A packet of M&Ms last me an hour. I should revert back to HARIBO to save money and get back to shape. Took pictures today and I looked fat. Really. Really.

14. Many many things to revise before promos. Better start studying. ARGH.

It kinda sucks when you ask a teacher a question and the teacher says something like," Forget it, never mind it."

So. I drove one teacher crazy that teacher decided to give up on me.

Then. I thought I understood my econs dm well already and was rather glad I was so prepared. But when I looked at the question ( it was dm simple), nothing can to my head.

De javu.

Last year's geog test in class. I studied for it. I studied one process harder, in particular.

And when the question was," What is the name of this process?"

I left the dm thing blank cos I was stuck. I couldn't remember what the toots it was.

Freak. I hate myself for being so dm dumb sometimes.

God never slumbers. He won't give up on me.

So I slept at 8am. Woke up at 1pm.

Went to church and watched the DVD on BGR. It was alright. But I thought today's discussion was dm fun! HAHA. Talked so much about boys and relationships and all. Of course, cg time wasnt co-ed. Today, the girls and guys split up for discussion.

And when we couldnt find logical reasons to answer our questions during cg time, we just blame the guys for being downright stupid and dumb. HAHA.

But it's true. Guys just aren't sensitive to feelings like girls are.

Tell a guy you're alright when you're not and he'll go," Ok, bye."

Tell a girl you're alright when you're not and she'll go," No, I know you're not, so tell me what's bothering you when you are ready. I'll be here."

See the difference.

They say there can't be plutonic relationships between 2 people of the opposite gender. I say can. But of course, it depends on what kind of person the guy is. If you obviously know that there is no feelings between you and that guy, then hanging out and talking and all is alright.

I can think of one guy I most definitely do not have any feelings for. HAHA. So hanging out wont hurt.

After TM I went to study with Jonah. Ate at Kenny Rogers first. Jonah the giant finished off the mashed potatoes on my plate after he said he was full. My full means sorry no more means no more. Haha. At least my plate is rather clean now. HAHA.

Studied for about 4 hours. Dm shiok. Econs econs econs. I only finished about 1/4 of the pages in Market competition notes needed for monday though.

Mug Cheryl mug.

Ah. Slept at 12, woke up at 3, mugging till I finish one more overdue assignment.

Sleeping later again. Until its time to go to TM.

This feels dm shiok.

I'm back to my sec 4, pre O levels (mugging alone by the yellow light with yanyan (chocolate flavoured) and Angel constantly barking for me to chase her around the dining table and then catch her and hold her as I study or give her a biscuit to shut her up and not wake the whole family) days.

This time, I'm mugging with my brother. HAHA. And we're mugging at Outram instead of Cherry Hill. How cool!! Wheee! =)

Just emailed Mrs Goh my VJ compre. OMG. VJ compre is frickin' tough. RJ's is so much easier. Weird eh. Rargh. I think the next compre I have to do is AC's. Damn. Gimme a break.

Econs test on monday, it totally slipped my mind. Luckily for Jarred, otherwise, I would probably fail like crap again. Not that I wont fail, but fail with high marks lah. HAHA.

Gonna mug again with Jonah later I think. Shall start studying econs then. HAHA.

Watched the sunrise with lil brother ( who is about 3/4 heads taller than me. How ironic). What little of the sunrise we saw, that is. We had an obstructed view. The row of shophouses' fault I say.

Bryan and I were engrossed in our work until he looked at his cellphone and went," 6.37am. Eh. Sunrise."

So fun so fun was out at Sybs house for makan session! =)

Before that, I had jap lunch again, went to see ANGEL THE BUMBUM!! She's so happy in her new house and as lazy as ever! AWW the lil piggy skinnier than before. But her hair makes her look FAT. HAHA.

Then went back to Cherryhill to look at the house. MY ROOM IS SO DARN COOL. My gosh. LOVE IT. Woots! Haha. The tiling is almost done. Except for a corner of the house where they put the sand for the tiling and everything else. I told daddy to leave it , then he can practice chipping IN THE HOUSE!! How cool! HAHA.

Went to Sybs house after that. We were supposed to do work, but we all forgot to bring our notes. So with the books only, we couldn't do anything.

So we chilled out and ate and drank and ate and drank and played I never again. Wasn't so fun this time, cos we didnt drink anything for forfeit.

OH we pranked figtree. And Jerard, Diana's boyfriend, told him in Chinese that he won an Estee Lauder contest and got until 12 noon to claim his $200 worth of skin products. DM FUNNY. Recorded it all down. HAHA. Figtree was all," Wrong number." Until his dad went," Take the $200 and shove it up your a***." Haha. That was hilarious and everyone in the room tried not to laugh. In the end, the game was given away cos we couldnt contain our laughter. Aw well. I say Jerard was dm pro at the chinese thing! HAHA.

Jerard and Diana left first. Then we were all on the rooflanding when Ian's parents came and Becca and Eugene had to leave. Then Sybs, Zhuann, Gussie and I were left. And we talked about secrets. Ooooo. Haha.

The two buggers almost stayed over at Sybs' house cos they were lying flat on the floor and didn't want to get up. They bugged me to stay but too bad i couldn't. Aiy. So wasted. If not 4 of us would have slept in the open, on the floor. So fun! HAHA.

The guys started to tease me about the turtle and Mr Lian. I kicked Gussie so many times, he rolled over once. HAHA. And then Zhuann and I sat on him when Sybs tickled him. DM FUNNY HAHA. And then Gussie did a push up while I was still sitting on his back! POWER. Haha.

Cabbed home after that. There were so many waiting taxis.

I didn't pick up my phone when Gussie called to check on me. They were apparently so worried and didn't know what to do cos they thought the driver would bring me to some ulu place and raped me. HAHA. 7 missed calls. Opps. Sorry! =)

How to tell mummy that I need to get make up for dance?

I need

Liquid eyeliner (or dark/very visible pencil)

Blusher

That's all dude.

The rest is provided for.

If I ask, she'll ask me," Why do you need these? Does this mean there would be many many performances every year? You better not retain you know."

HELLO. As if I WANT to be retained. Dude. Think.

And in the first place, they said," I'd rather you be in dance than in cheerleading."

So.

Yay we won 2nd. We should have worn red shirts. Cos if we did, we would hae won the competition.

Our class pieced this together only in a few days. So winning 2nd is not bad I guess. But I know everyone was more or less disappointed, be it very or slightly.

I'm tired. Didn't sleep much last night. Ate dinner and cake at 11 plus over at michelle's house. Had rehearsals so I had to stay in school til late. Then rushed home to pack everything to mich's house.

We took a million and one jumping pictures in the garden. Audrey kept closing her eyes, that bugger. Haha.



Michelle's life is so exciting. Woots. So nice I also want surprises! So fun! =)


Alrights. I need to go mug. Someone mug with me!

My class auditioned for the singing competition and we got into the finals. I think we're in it cos of only 2 attractions.

The singing thing. To showcase A9's talents.

The money. GEOG notes cost a BOMB. Serious. Every week's notes cost more than $20. That's madness.

The hundred we won from the amazing race has already been spent on notes. Now none is left.

WE NEED MONEY and GOD WILL ALWAYS PROVIDE. =)

I'm happy, because it's the weekends. And I know God is working. I'm slowly finishing my homework. THATS LIKE A MIRACLE on its own. Haha.

I'm tempted to go slack around. Cos I'm tired. I'm tired. But no. Essays are due. THEY ARE DUE SOON.

Eee. My class ponned math to wastch disturbia. Its a scary show, I didn't go, didn't pon math.

I WANT TO WATCH HARRY POTTER I HAVENT WATCH IT YET.

Anyone wants to bring me out? =)