so what am i?

for my whole life i have been asked many times whether or not i am a foreigner.

so for all those who do not know me that well, let me tell you, that i am a 100% singaporean.

no, not a japanese or korean or chinese-from china.

haha. yesterday as i was taking taxi home from school ( i was really really tired) the taxi driver asked me if i were a chinese national after i spoke two lines to him in chinese!! is that i compliment or what? my chinese is not that bad eh! who said i sucked?

hey all those in school, especially those from my class like ZOEY!! haha, read this and try to stop asking me to pronounce those simple chinese words that sometimes, note, only sometimes, pose as a challenge to me.

if you say a line and i repeat, i can speak rather fluently, but if you dont say it and ask me to read it like that by myself, then sometimes i dont sound that correct. i have no idea why like that.

anyway, back to my point.

that taxi uncle was really friendly and we chatted the whole journey. then i shared how when i was in primary 1, i went to thailand and stayed in a beach resort. then one day i was picking flowers by the beach with a guy when this japanese couple passed by, then came up to me and bowed.

woah! i got a shock, kept quiet and walked on. crap man, now that i think of it, the couple must have thought i was very impolite. maybe i should have just bowed back or something. haha.

oh then one or two years or so back, a friend came back from studying overseas and commented i look like a jap or korean singer/star. thank you thank you. haha.

i wonder what would happen if i dressed like a tourist and went to some shop in town to buy clothes or something. then try to buy it without speaking, just body language. would they really think i were a foreigner and jack up the price? haha.

and if i were to pay for something and pretended that i was not famliar with the currency, and let then take the money by themselves when i show them what i have, would they take the right amount?

I GOT CHEATED!!!

argh, well, i knew i was getting cheated but yet i still stood there like a fool and let them take my money. only an ultimate dumb-asses like me get fooled like this. let me tell you what happened.

i was on my way to heartland mall kovan. i have to take an mrt so that day i walked to the station.

as i was walking up the stairs i saw a group of indian girls sitting on the railings, some were asking for donations.

i walked up the stairs and tried not to make eye contact. but unfortunately the group sorta like made a semi circle and surrounded me, and one of them started talking super fast, all i knew was that they wanted the money to help sick children and one ticket was $2. the talking girl held up this file with some certificate lookalike. like so obviously it was fake. the print was all blur and smudged. the whole thing didnt even look real la.

i said i had no small change. then another girl went," oh dont worry we have.. i have i have."

huh?

the money they got were put into folders. not even like tin cans where the money cannot be taken out again.

i didnt want to donate but i still took out my wallet and got a five dollar note out.

then. then. the indian girl started frowning, acting all pitiful, and told me to donate $4 to help poor, chronically ill children. " just $2 more, to help the sick children..."

i refused, saying that i needed the money as well.

immediately her attitude changed. she rolled her eyes and she went," oh ok, thankyou bye." then she walked away.

huh? urgh.

what rubbish. then i just walked to the escalator. i passed a construction worker and then i heard very loudly," eh uncle, got cigarette?"

oh my gosh. shock.

i looked at the ticket and i saw that they didnt even state the organisation name. just mkac- a friend in deed.

what the toot is mkac?

then at the corner of the ticket were two vouchers to tear out. one was some 10% discount when you eat at sapphire cuisine. ok, well, somewhat believable, maybe there was a resturant like that.

guess what. the next one sold SERANGOON AIR!

ahhhhh!!!!

stupid!!!

i couldnt believe my eyes.

enough said about this.

sighs-

all the while i knew i was being cheated and yet i stood there and let them take my money.

well, maybe i was afraid of what they might have done to me if i refused. can you imagine, i said i needed the money so can only give $2 and her face went so black already. what if i didnt donate anything? so many of them can easily kill one me.

these kinda things happen to me when i'm out alone. which is why i hate going out by myself.

oh, there was this once when i was walking up the hill from church. and this group of bengs with dyed hair and slippers were walking the opposite direction. they were walking in the middle of the road andi just looked down, continued to walk on.

then the group walked closer to me. and one stopped and said," ello!" and waved.

yikes.

i just fastened my paced.

from then on i try to get my brother to send me home after church every week..

unfortunately he hasnt learnt how to be a gentleman yet. sometimes he leaves me on my own to go out with his friends for dinner. and stuff.

oh well.

on those days i try find someone to walk with through the alleys. oh and sometimes i just try to get another person to make my brother send me home. my brother listens to other people but not me.

if i say lets go he would go," five minutes five minutes.. ok ok three."

then if i get someone like nicole or amy jie or any other jies to get him he would respond immediately.

i'm kinda disappointed. haha. and i bet no one would believe me when i say i dont really have good friends.

well, its somewhat true. i define a good friend as one who would understand my feelings, be honest with me, know what i would want and you know, have that 'telepathy' thing. and a true friend is willing to go through tough times with you. also, a friend is willing to share her feelings.

i realised that in upper sec, i have NO really good friends. not that i dont have friends, but no one in my class really connects with me. yea i have my clique, but somehow we dont really "click". ever since joanne left for shanghai, no one has been honest with me, telling me what she thinks about me.

i really miss life in a1 class in lower sec, however, it was only yesterday that i actually regretted not quitting table tennis earlier to concentrate on my studies. then i could be in a different class. i'm starting to be tired of the people in mine. yesterday was really the first time i was angry at myself for not working harder in sec 2.

its really wierd how some people can keep her ideas from you until the last minute although the matter concerns you. i got quite angry today in school but i kept it to myself.

my clique decided last week to come to my house to watch a movie. so to be a good host, i went to the supermarket and bought tons of food from cheese sausages to wor ties, the same as the kind they sell in school. i bought sesame dumplings, drinks and everything, i think my dad almost went broke. haha. nah, kidding.

i went to school today, happy that it was the second last day of prelims. however, when i reached the classroom, and sat down, i asked rachel, " so what time are you all planning to come?" or something to that effect. rachel just blankly answered," oh we are going to beefy's house, cos you and jo have chinese. so by the time you all come we would have finished the show."

huh? i then asked," so means i not going lah?"

rachel said," yah."

yah. yah? what is this?

then to hide my embarassment i replied," oh ok lor, then you all go la." as if just deciding that they go by themselves, like they haven't already decided.

if it were me, i would have been willing to wait for a friend at home before watching the show or even wait in the classroom first, even though it were a 2 hour paper.

if it were me, i would be GLAD to wait for a friend, and then enjoy her company.

i guess i'm not that important huh.

actually, all these are small matters, what i'm pissed about is that every single one of them lacked basic courtesy to even tell me that they were not coming, even though they obviously made the decision the day before.

i was quite upset that i sat for my paper and halfway, i was distracted by my thoughts. i thought of how little i meant to them, how 'thoughtful' they were. and obviously, they could have fun without feeling guilty.

i'm actually speechless at their actions although i know that their characters are like that. i should have gotten used to it. but i dunno what happened.

i'm speechless i actually bother. if i were still in a1 class, all these wouldnt matter. simply because, the people would not treat you like dirt or as if you were invisible.

i learnt how to be invincible when i came to b1 class, i stopped talking so much ever since sec 3.

oh well, life goes on and tomorrow, i have to continue pretending.

oh wait, i dont really have to, cos i'm invincible.

yesterday's event was the one i said i wouldnt go to. but i did. and i am so glad i did. too bad jeanne YEO.. fellow cg member. =p JEANNE you missed loads! haha! you really should have came. really.

alright. i had no tuition. and i was so frickin' glad to be able to sleep in till past 8am for once. mummy woke me up to go see uncle james. argh!

uncle james is the person i go to to see if i need to wear specs or not. he's the boss. and my family doesnt go anywhere else to get glasses. he say yes means yes must wear, no means no need LAH.

luckily for me, my eyesight is good enough not to wear specs, meaning i can get a pair of sunglasses to replace the PRECIOUS ones i lost on one of korea's ski slopes. mummy promised.


well, actually, i've been wanting to wear glasses. haha. you must think i'm crazy. but NO. haha. and i DO know what it feels like to wear them. i've used glasses since primary 1, but stopped in like p5 when my eyesight improved.

if uncle james said i needed to wear glasses, then no more shades!

anyway, after that, mummy, daddy and i went to have a quick lunch before sending me to the school for the captain's ball competition! clarice came i am so happy. haha! oh and i met mr kim. he asked me why i was walking around so frantically. haha! i was actually looking for the toilet LAH!

this year's captains ball competition was held in prebyterian high school. and the team i was in consisted of all the sec 4s. unfortunately, we had 12 players and had to split 2 teams with one player short each. but, heheh. here's the happy part.

we were 1 team, with 2 team names. meaning we had twice the chances of winning big time! woo-ha! just rotate players, with some overlapping, and voila! perfect combo!

so there we were, in the sec4 to jc 2 category. before we even started, i thought we stood no chance. come on man, we were the youngest group and our average height was about half a head shorter than theirs. and jcs like innova sent in more than 3 teams of superb players please. acjc also had a few teams i think. i cant remember any jcs else cos there were too many people in blue innova shirts. the other teams had no standard shirts.

oh yea. and the jc teams all had emergent guys. like a head taller than the rest kind. there were a few i was tempted to ask for their ICs. i mean like, they look 20 or something. next time, categories should go according to height.

yup. my point is, we were youngest, had less experience and whatever else needed to win a game. the first match was against jc2s and i am proud to say WE WON! maybe because the other team underestimated us? haha. so they didnt give their best? i dunno..

oh i forgot to say who was in this 12 man team.

ELIEL- team captain and ACS rugger. a rugger is a rugger. enough said.
SETH- team captain and VS boys brigade scout. ( do you call it scout? oh dont underestimate seth. he beat james JI in pull ups and other fitness stuff. James is our cg leader, twin of Jon Ji and both equally giant.)

SHERWYN- twin of seth and dunno-what-school's basketballer. without him, i think the opponents could have scored like 20 goals a game. yea. sherwyn was that good. he blocked almost everything la! pro-master! rarrgh. you can say he's something like our play-maker.

ESMOND- Hwa Chong gymast. slightly taller than me, but haha. quick reflexes and all muscles.

BEN- quiet man. but boy can he play! i've never seen ben move much. but he's steady and not rush. opposing teams dont notice him, making him an important player of ours. heheh. secret weapon?

JOSHUA- RI's dunno what. but boy can he catch. Joshua seldom misses a catch. no Joshua, much much lesser points scored.

GRACE- Nanyang's netball captain. enough said.

CLARICE- sure dares to try snatch a ball. even from guys taller by a head. i cant do that.

EE LAINE- another BEN. quiet and unnoticed. but good to have on court.

PENELOPE- didnt play much, but she's not bad.. not bad at all.

ME- the one always standing near our catcher while the rest try to get the ball. haha. i get to run less and score more. when someone defends and get the ball, like sherwyn or something, and opponents are too near to pass to nearby team mates, he goes long and i catch. then i will ATTEMPT to score. hey, i score quite a few ok.. haha..

i forgot who's the last player. crap man. how could i?

or maybe we had 11 only. haha. i dunno.

oh and in the end, we lost 2 games and won 3. cool man.

yea and we had the wrong strategy. we should have lost one of our teams badly and won one team strongly. so that we could play in both the winners league and losers league and get both teams in the finals and win first and second. then we could spent the $80 sakae sushi voucher for lunch then head to swensens to spend the $50 voucher on ice creams for desserts later on. aww.

unfortunately, we won and won and had to play our 2 teams against each other. so we just forfeited one team and added points to the other.

oh then we lost in the 3rd and 4th placing match one of the innovian teams.

haha. to be able to go so far, i'm happy enough.

yea! and one more interesting thing. nicole came to play. haha. and when she was playing against another team, i told cheryl, grace and clarice that in that game, nicole would play and fall down. but then she would rub it off and continue playing, not wanting to rest or anything.

and i was right. thankfully, cos i told them that nicole was a good, close friend. not that i wanted to see nicole fall, but if she didnt then i wouldnt be a good and close friend enough. i dont mean anything else ok. haha. aiya. its hard to explain what i was thinking.

i had a lot of exercise and had a lot of fun. thats all la.

oh yea. and when bryan and i went to the interchange to take a bus, it just left. so we ran to the next bus stop, and caught it. haha!